Day 19… so I’m back at Day 1 (1 + 9 = 10 = 1) Day 1

The full circle of life and living, the beginning, the living, the death and regeneration over and over again and again until, what?
What is heaven or Nirvana? Is returning to God or The Light about total surrender of self? Could life be a process that burns the chaff off, like the Bible says, and we become one with our maker once by again loosing our self in the process? Is life about loosing our egos, our wants and desires and surrendering our uniqueness? And, are the Buddhists correct? How about the less fortunate, are they actually the most well to do, auspicious, prosperous (etc) because losing the self through humbling circumstances makes them godlike? Are The Christians (whom I am closes to belief) correct as it is appointed unto man to die once and then the judgment (Hebrews 9:27). And, this I don’t believe as I’ve written about in a previous thought on Day 8.
These questions go around and around and there are no black and white answers…
And this is Day 19, so day 1 and have come full circle in thoughts about birth, living, dying and regeneration…
What do you think and believe?