3 Little Promises

Hmm ~ What's that?

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; 

The green hospital walls passed by as I seemed to float down the hospital corridors. I was detached, though still alive, but emotionally removed. The pain of the fact of knowing he would soon die caused the separation of my own spirit and soul from this bad news. I simply couldn’t handle the news. It threatened my being. It meant my life would change forever. And, if I could change places with the loved one, there would be no hesitations, I would. But, that’s what loving mothers do, isn’t it?

Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 

Oh, Lord what does this mean? Because in a state of flux and turmoil, who really knows what this promise is or suggests? I suppose you’re saying you will fight for us and we should have comfort in knowing this as fact. I guess. But, to help you out, I called on my deceased loved ones to help. The saints took their places with the angels.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: 
thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 

Even though, life is a battle and many forces and foes play a part in this warfare we fight daily for our souls, oh. I wonder, do we all take a time out from the war, and sit down to sup with each other, friend and foe alike, then get up from that table and pick up our swords just to continue the raging disagreements for our souls? I mean, how does this work? And, why?

There must be a galactic force that has waged war on the entire planet. Our planet, is effected. Perhaps the others are as well…

But, however huge or overwhelming the situation these 3 verses sustain many, including me. The power behind the 3 promises is astounding.

Read more: http://www.lords-prayer-words.com/famous_prayers/the_lord_is_my_shepherd_psalm_23.html#ixzz3kMMqPlKt

For Joel

Dreaming and entering life because we choose to fight our human battles... Now fight with faith Believe
Dreaming and entering life because we choose to fight our human battles…
Now fight with faith
Believe

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: 
He leadeth me beside the still waters. 
He restoreth my soul: 
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; 
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: 
Thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: 
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Read more: http://www.lords-prayer-words.com/famous_prayers/the_lord_is_my_shepherd_psalm_23.html#ixzz3kMMqPlKt

Anxiety, Fears and Phobias ~ The Stars Made Me Do It

The life circle. The Golden Ratio, Fibonacci
The life circle. The Golden Ratio, Fibonacci, The Universe

Using Astrology to see our road map of where we were and where our past influences have perhaps been situational and maybe shaped us. The astrological road map is similar to an old friend that sorts out our past in a physical manor. Bearing in mind, that Astrology, should never be used to soothsay or to cause someone to take a path that isn’t well thought out with the help of God Almighty. This road map is the same one The Magi used to find The Christ Child. It is merely a map of the heavens and their vibrational forces upon us. We are the master’s of our roads and with God’s help we will get to where we are suppose to be.  The map of the sky is just like a God’s divine treasure map. Furthermore, some people can read and understand them while others are intimidated, frightened or bewildered.

I give God and my Lord Jesus Christ all the thanks for the insight that He has shown me by way and illumination of the stars…

Yes, I am a Christian, if you are wondering.

This is my study of the forensics of disease. This first case is dealing with anxiety disorders and where to look in a chart for planetary influences effecting the nervous system.

Case study: #1

Anxiety Disorders show up in childhood sometimes through being mute. Traumatic events can cause muteness and sometimes not. The use of astrology will be used to examine the phobias provided the birth date and time are correct. Assuming that the entrance of an infant into our world is absolutely correct this is how it could be interpreted.

The story:

The “little girl” was deathly afraid to talk. She couldn’t utter sentences but managed to speak simple words. She thought she was retarded when young and a battery of IQ tests were given which scored her as average. Plain old average, that was her worst fear.

She came to see me hoping that I would be able to calculate her wounds by using the constellations and the placement of the houses during her time of birth. If we could figure out the gravity and planetary vibrations on her psyche, then we could understand the origin of her phobias. Do the stars have anything to do with the anxieties she experiences? The phobias and horrific fears that she faces in life or her challenges, are they chemical and involve neurotransmitters or are they traumatic events that trigger the neurotransmitters and cortisol stress response with the flight, flight and fire?

The astrological information is withheld to protect the person’s identity. However a description of any malefic planets and houses will be examined to see if there was a predestined fate, will be posted.

The first indication that was noted is 22º Uranus 46′ in Cancer in the 4th house in the natal chart. Although it is not a strong indicator of a specific one wound, the planet in Cancer in the 4th house suggests early childhood dysfunction per se’ that may be many uproars in a home, not just one. Possibly and imbalance of the status quo that makes it difficult for any infant or child to find the necessary coping skills for life. Perhaps, constant arguing, rejections, or neglecting of the child became the wound and probably a huge wound gaping with toxic feelings and horrendous emotions.

Next, The Moon in 3º Cancer 58′ in the 7th house suggests a super sensitivity or psychic awareness. These perceptions can be real or imagined, as if, they were absolutely real however, the awareness is not the same as, the hallucinations or delusions assessed in psychosis or in schizophrenia. Furthermore, The Moon represents our emotional self. It is where our hearts reside and feels life. The Moon in Cancer, in it’s own place or home, in this case, tells us there are emotions as deep as one can go. Perhaps, they are the emotions of an artist or an extremely creative person. More than likely she would be musically inclined. Since, the 7th house is the natural home of Libra, the scales of justice and beauty then  Cancer (family) sitting in the 7th house would represent esthetics, beauty and justice. Saying this we would understand that if Cancer were to judge, then Cancer would judge the guilty, as a mother would. Cancer would be somewhat fair. It would be emotional and possibly lenient due to it being a mother, who in this case would be, in charge of the laws. Thus meaning, who the mother Cancer is defending would determine the weight of the scales in the house of Libra that the scales would so incline. If it were a child of her own, then she, would seek the child’s safety, and if, the crime was committed against her child, the accused would not fair well, in the 7th house of judgement. It is at that time Cancer looses the balanced judgements when using psychic awareness and will become slanted in their perceptions because of strong deep maternal emotions. Even if this is a male energy, it would  experience this imbalance, and have difficulty remaining fair and balanced.

The next 3 planets are in the 10th house and greatly effect each other. They conjunct each other, and they could act like siblings at times. Sometimes good and sometimes fighting as kids do. This closeness is called a conjunction.

The first next malefic would be Saturn in 17º Libra 45′  in the 10th house. It must be said here that Saturn has a job to do and it is the disciplinarian of the planets and it will clean house if necessary and is not merciful. Now, that you know that Saturn alone can be trouble, this must be said about it in conjunction with 2 other planets (actually 4, but for this article we are only concerned with 3) so having said all that, when the home or family life is continually dysfunctional and when there is heightened sensitivity to the unseen world (psychic tendencies) there is a possibility of an unbalanced psyche or psychic state that picks up negatives more than positives due to the lack of positive experiences. The lack of positive experiences was measured in early childhood developement in this case. There must be a balance to know or understand both negative and positive sensitivities.

Now moving onto the next malefic planetary possibility and that is Neptune. It is 21ºLibra 15′ in the 10th house. This creates a magical, whimsical naive person who suffers from idealism. And, again, in early childhood having difficulty with trusting parental figures. It is because of their own committed approach to raising the young girl. Their motivations were seen as incongruent to what they verbalized. In other words they may say I love you, but the body language, the tone, and the heart, depicted another intent. The child can not trust the parental figure and Neptune in Libra in the 10th house would suggest more instability.

On a good note, Mercury 26º Libra 6′ gives a counter combat to the 3 other malefic planets in the same house, number 10. Mercury in this placement seems to take up from the child. It gives her a positive ray of sunshine approach to life. She sees well the entire situation more so when she matures, probably later in life. With Mercury in this place she will seek the higher road and will choose to forgive the past if the past will forgive itself and allow her to move onward.  Also, the other possibility is the adult woman learned how to detach emotionally at an early age. This would have made the way for a disassociation disorder. A splitting of personalities to cope would be a possibility with Mercury opening a door of escapism.

At this time I must say: There are haunting memories that at times want to be heard or justified and perhaps will awaken a soul in the middle of the night. The ghosts (memories) want others to forgive and bless them. Perhaps this is where hell is. That is where a soul can’t find rest and must be forgiven. This adds to the fears and phobias this muted child experienced. The psychic world is prevalent in this child and now in the adult.

Next is 7º Chiron 11′ in Capricorn in the 1st house which is also a strong indicator of early childhood dysfunction. Chiron is The Healer or is here to heal the individual. Because it is in the first house usually occupied by Aries, this is about self and healing of the self.  Chiron entered this world at this placement to assist the young soul into eternal healing.

To finalize the astrological assessment of predominance of anxieties, fears and phobias must say, the stars did indicate this person would strongly have anxiety disorder, which includes most of the spectrum. Generalized, Panic, agoraphobia, PTSD, social phobias, and mutism are indicated by the reading of this chart.

Again, the age old question is presented “Which comes first, the chicken or the egg?” Was it predestined, fated, or is it a coincidence and it is just the neurotransmitters gone haywire? Hmm… 

I say the answer is found in the stars or in both.

Case #2  To be continued

Decisions of Angels

Sifting the salty sand through my toes

Remembering my life, then, as it was

Thinking about choices that humans have

Comparing decisions and comparing the lows

Humans have love that hurts at times

Angels have no emotions that make them blind

Humans eat foods made for the gods

Angels think nothing except for their jobs

To return, I’ll loose my wings

But, with his kiss, perhaps, I’ll wear his ring

Children I’ll bare in pain and lament

But, being his angel, I’ll always defend.

Decisions to make as I walk the shore

Leaving behind my job and it’s lore

Decisions to make before dawn

The waves wait patiently to carry me on

Revenge

This pic is suppose to be a ghost murdered on a ship or boats plank
This pic is suppose to be a ghost who was murdered on a ship or boats plank

LOOK at my eyes!

See this planks that covers my cries!

Murdered here on the deck mid winter

When the cold wind billowed on the high seas.

 

I’ll never know of true love

Never will I kiss a child’s brow

So, I’ll watch the lovers on the upper deck

Sweet revenge as I muster their wreck

 

Ghouls sail during a full moon

Lovers dance on with the tunes

And, Ill be there awaiting patiently

Just a slight slip off the cold grey steel platoon.

 

 

“The Fetus”

The Fetus

“The fetus and/or discarded tissue” is the way, they refer to the child, I never knew.
A fight to protect a grown woman right’s is predominate over the right’s of you.
Big business, clear throat, the governments claims are like talons
They use the media to promote their “caring valors.”
While, in fact, my babies tissue it seems
Was used in cosmetics and that was beyond my wildest dreams
“We’re just experimenting for the good of mankind,”
Their lame excuses sicken me, I suppose, they knew, I was blind.
To the fact that my babies tissues brought monetary and scientific foresight
Is beyond this humans understanding and is societies plight
For what will we be when it comes to mankind?
Throw away babies for the sake of the dying?
Are we so greedy and grab at our demising time left
That we forfeit the right’s of the young, through theft?
There’s no more to say at this moment
Except my heart has broken each Christmas morning
Missing two faces, whose hands are gone
Into someone’s hair treatment and a bottle of pretentious Perignon
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***There is no picture that I found suitable so one was chosen at random.

Skulls at Choeung Ek

Judicial Report Watch: ‘ Clinton email scandal hots up with big news stories after court process ‘

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#AceNewsServices – Exclusive Report: Aug.15: Judicial Watch has had remarkable success in using the court process to obtain answers on the burgeoning email scandal, including from Hillary Clinton herself.

Since my report to you last week, events have moved quickly.  

First, a JW Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) lawsuit forced Mrs. Clinton to do what no other congressional committee, FBI, or Justice Department investigation has been able to do – submit information, under penalty of perjury, about her email system.  The week began with the U.S. State Department submitting to a federal court an August 8 sworn declaration from former Secretary of State Hillary Clinton regarding federal records on her controversial email system.  The declaration states:

I, Hillary Rodham Clinton, declare under penalty of…

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Is God Watching Us

At a Distance is God Watching US?
At a Distance is God Watching US?

Photograph taken from my iPhone 5 Fall 2014 (on the road to Bullard, TX. South of Tyler.)

Hmm ~ What's that?
Hmm ~ What’s that?
Zooming in on strange objects
Zooming in on strange objects

Yesterday August 12, 2015, I was looking at this pic trying to use the sky in an art project when I discovered these unidentified flying objects.

Just a little closer
Just a little closer

Enlarging

enlarging
enlarging

Bigger

The best improvement from my pc
The best improvement from my pc

About the best that I can do with enlarging

Thoughts about the pics and comments are greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Doodling While Waiting, waiting, waiting ~ waiting and waiting

Doodling
Doodling Art

What goes around and around in our minds? How can we record all of our thoughts?

The best answer that I’ve found is doodling while we are idle. This was a doodle art (coping skills) that I did while waiting for 14 hours to pass one fine day. So, while making time pass, I doodled here and there, and this is the collection of some the things running through my mind.

Who can fathom the depths of our mind? Perhaps the answers can be found in Doodle Art.

Artist Jealousy

Have you ever felt this way? Jealousy because your comparing yourself with another? Well, I have and sometimes I don't recognize those wicked little thoughts as jealousy, until I examine each one closer..
Have you ever felt this way? Jealousy. Because you’re comparing yourself, with another? Well, I have too and sometimes I don’t recognize those wicked little thoughts as jealousy, until I examine each one closer. So, I wrote a little poem about that ill-willed feeling in hopes that I would learn a lesson…

Artist Jealousy

I want you to be blessed
~ I really do.
But, don’t rise above me
Cause, then you’ll see a shrew
 ~
“Oh, you’re so amazing,”
Speaking from my pride
But, don’t rise above me
Cause my knife will hit you’re blindside
~
 You’ll think me “so kind.”
Lying threw my teeth
But, don’t rise above me
Cause, that bus? I’ll throw you beneath.
~
Now, put your work on the front
And, by the way, here’s mine!
But, don’t rise above me
Cause only I can shine!
~