The Honeymoon Cycle

 

“Oh! The diamond ring is unbelievable!” 

Is it worth those horrible words?

“Oh, the dinner was divine!”

Did it pay for being called a whore?

“OH, you’re buying me a new house!”

Does it compensate the lacerations?

“Oh, you’re buying me a horse! My heart is beyond delight!”

Is this another pay off?

“How the clothes are beyond my wildest expectations, you didn’t have too.”

Yes, I guess you did, it pays for my pain.

“Thank you for all the gifts!”

But, my wounds are raw and bleeding. It will happen again, and I collect presents.

 

Three months later, or so…..

“You whore, you slut! You’re stupid and worthless, a dumbass.

No one will love you. So forget thinking you’ll find someone else.

And our child? You won’t get. I have more money than you.

In the courts I’ll prove you a drunk. I took pictures, my love.”

 

Violence occurs.

He hits her.

He beats her.

He drags her down the hall by her neck.

All the while screaming, “You bitch.!”

Your child hides.

He says, “mommy don’t cry.”

“Shhh… Be quiet. A wise three year old.”

A protector of his mommy. 

Wiser than his years.

Sent from heaven.

The hit, the teeth, the blackened face. 

 

Two days later:

The finest restaurant.

New clothes,

The diamond

The horse

The car

The house

The lavish gifts

“Oh! The diamond ring is unbelievable!” 

Is it worth those horrible words?

“Oh, the dinner was divine!”

Did it pay for being called a whore?

“OH, you’re buying me a new house!”

Does it compensate the lacerations?

“Oh, you’re buying me a horse! My heart is beyond delight!”

Is this another pay off?

“How the clothes are beyond my wildest expectations, you didn’t have too.”

Yes, I guess you did, it pays for my pain.

“Thank you for all the gifts!”

 

 

But, my wounds are raw and bleeding. It will happen again, and I collect presents.

I can not forget anymore.

 

 

Then, three months roll around, once again…

The cycle goes round and around.