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The Lives of Fairy Godmothers, Angels and Witches Catherine Dubois’ Odyssey to Enchantment

 

 

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Catherine Dubois’ Odyssey To Enchantment

By Bonnie Jennings

 

Within 150,000 words weaves a story involving an edgy woman who is either psychotic or is as the townsfolk believe eldritch. They, in Glory Town, a charming picture-perfect town, nestled in The Appalachians, call her a witch. For Cat Dubois, decades passed and she becomes more isolated from her accusers. Jealousy and scorn for a child who was fey with sapience, the  community of pretentious righteous, mocked her. The quaint town was not so “charming” after all and quickly ran sinners away. While alone for years, Cat began to see and hear voices. Visitors seldom came; however, her lonesome manor was haunted. However, little Cat prayed a prayer when only a child. That prayer was answered when she turned forty-five. An angel or fairy godmother named Eleanor came riding on the wind. Traveling with Eleanor was Tadhg, who was of the same order and virtue, and a little black dog named, Lovey.

“A scream was heard that summer day. A four-year-old little Catherine moaned into the mystical wind. She told the wind to find Thomas. Bellowing, into the breeze, her little heart begged, with vigorous might. The current carried her voice. It never ceased, until one day, “I heard it,” and that was when, Eleanor came riding in on the wind.” 

 

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My Little late JoJo as “Lovey”

 

 



 

 

The model in the photo is my daughter, the photographer was my son, and the digital artist is my dear friend Ky Mason. The picture has a copyright so I ask you, please don’t use it as it might be the cover of my novel … Thank you…  All Rights Reserved

 

Ky Ellen Mason artist/editor/graphics designer/publishing/printing

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May you have a wonderful day and thank you for stopping in and reading 🌺

The Winner’s of The Poetry Contest Are 📢📢📢 A Drum Roll Please 🏆🏆🏆

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First of all~ I want to thank the three judges who graciously accepted this role. It has been tedious and also rewarding for each of us. Also I must mention, at this time, they still remain anonymous. 

As I said before, my role was the organizer, the sorter and the mailman. Blame me for the formatting… It just doesn’t want to do right…  🙂

So without further delay…

 

 

IN FIRST PLACE …. Ta Da-Da-DAA !!! 



 

 

🏆🥇 First Place Gold Winner Is …

 All I Have to GiveBy DL Mullan

I listen to the whispers of the windin hopes to catch the sound of youmy sorrow is all I have to givebecause there is nothing I can doI am not complete; I am not wholewhat I would ask is for solaceto lighten the load of my soulbut I find no peace in this silenceI am breaking now into piecesa fallen jig saw puzzle reordered into chaosI fit. I place. I try and try to seizea memory that will comfort meAll I have to give seems insufficientto the weight of my terrible griefmaybe if your voice guided my handI could put myself back together again  

   

 

 

 🜛🥈 Silver Place Winner

 ~~~ ABOUT MY MUM ~~~By, Charlotte Rains 

 
I want to begin my story with just a simple line
 
To begin again to tell a tale of a different place and time
 
A time when I was just a lass with curls and a pretty dress
 
Bringing smiles and laughter too and a lot of happiness
 
I often sought to please my mum and have her sing a song
 
A happy tune with words I knew so I could sing along
 
I sought her often to tell me tales of back when she was small
 
But often got a fairy tale…but I enjoyed them all
 
She’d tuck me in with kisses and hugs after the tale was read
 
I’d call her back for one more hug before she went to bed
 
Once I asked about my da but it seemed to make her sad
 
I saw a tear fall from her eye and thought that I’d been bad
 
But then she hugged me extra tight and whispered in my ear
 
That everything she could ever want was in her arms right here
 
We smiled and laughed and I fell asleep knowing I was loved
 
And even now my children know she watches from above
 
  
 

 

 

 

There is a tie for The Bronze place.

The next two poems were recognized by two different judges and were their first place winners. 

 

 

 > > And The 𐂚 🥉Bronze Place medal goes to…TWO POETS and they are…

Drum roll please…. !

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Written by Jelly Beer 
Books scattered on the sand, pages leafed through and tattered, possibly for research, an antique Smith-Corona left on the table maybe in haste by the author seeking inspiration from his surroundings to pen a longed-for best seller for himself and the masses.Writer’s block had reared its ugly head! Thoughts and ideas were dead inside him. He needed to breathe again and clear out the cobwebs clouding his brain.It’s happened before. He knew there’s one more book inside him. He was instinctive. He’ll find his way back to the table ~ and type!
 
 

And the second Bronze Winner is ….. 

 

 

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Catalyst  

by Gina Hirsch

 

I have come too close to the flames to ever want to miss out on the burn.I’ve lingered so long next to the night, I hate when it is the days turn.The day comes beckoning underneath  an angry sky. Clouds dance marvelously as the moon steps in to eclipse them all.I miss the blue heat. The wind that slowly tries to snuff it out. I loved and longed beyond all hope to tempt it all back to my claim. A rushing rapture of love.A course of venom from a lovers lips; who’s tongue is the only antidote. Who’s touch is my religion. Who’s arms and shoulders my only sanctuary.But the day took over the night.And passion and kisses and antidotes to hearts gilded wishes have all passed away.All that is left here is old ghosts and former images that fail to fade.Phantom shadows of the lover who never comes to stoke the flames.      The Honorable Mentions are those poems that were the judges high ranking choices and they are as follows…

🏆Morning Jennie,By Dwayne Leon Rankin 

The Final Leaf of Autumn
I looked and saw the leaves had left The trees, now fallen to the ground. But for one, still hanging on.But then the winds all blew and blew, Blowing all those leaves around. That leaf then too was gone.I looked outside and saw the trees All empty of their autumn’s coat; Bare now for winter’s day.To sleep, to sleep those trees now go That leaf, the last of autumn’s note.No more its song to play.

 

 

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 The Loch of Lomond

By Vernon Woods

 

Oh to be by the loch of Lomond on the heather clad banks on a cold misty morning a grounded eagle does mew from her diminished view she will have to wait it out and then the thunder and lightening and then the cloud as is resonates its echoes like a tennis ball against the rocky top mountains now naked from there snowy gowns I hear the distant lowings’ of a herd of Angus down in a fen let out of their barn yet again churning up the mud disturbing a clucking hen who now seeks safety from a tractors exhaust pipe ohhh just to lie here on these beautiful heather clad banks feeling the pitter patter of the angels tears I tell you they are not on there own I weep too my sopping sleeve a victim to my many uncontrollable tears not out off sadness badness but out of sheer utter joy I gaze up at the mountains as the grey cloudy sea wash the tops of the mountain scape the late Robin halls a bleacher lassie of Kelvinhaugh is sung from an echo of the past the bard rabbi burns earns his keep in a time way back where widows clad in black did weep his voice booming through the mist telling a story of the stealing of the stane of clone from the mountain tops steep to the lochs deep your velvety voice is not alone I hear it all to well ahhh the mists do disappear ill take my leave to meet up with a party with a ghilly in charge to go in search for salmon ohh my to behold these fine colored tartans these are the folk who have clan connections but what of my attire with no clan connections to you and I it will be a wearing of the Caledonia ohhh to be by the banks of the loch Lomond


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  Also highly mentioned… Thank you Linda 💐 Epitaph

By Linda Long

“You’re killing me….”Words I hung in the air,a prophecy that resonates through sleepless nightsMy heart said goodbye to itselfthat chilling evening in early AugustHow sacred the secret treasure of a wife and mother,how broken the memories,how haunting the path not taken


  The next poem is by my dear friend Karen Boorman

Walking down a long dark road
I have to
which way to go
North sou
or west
which way
uit me best
I have no
time i fear
for in my
he end draws near
I want to
he fullest I can
but which
go..must I choose?

 

Thank you Karen this reads like Robert Frost 🌺  

BIRTH

By Soul Gifts on WordPress ❤️

She moved.She swayed in time to the cadenceand beat of the rhythmsdrumming in her heart.Innocence was hers.As was beauty.Timeless, eternal, infinite.None dared question.Absorbed as she was, she noticed nothingbut the internal symphony,the music  that swayedand moved her eternally.The swell, the growth, the burgeoning,bursting and erupting explosions convulsedshook and shattered the firmaments asunder.In her splendour she bathedin the newness of birth.A new day.A new dawn.A new beginning.She smiled.It was wondrous..Thank you Soul Gifts 🌹   Thank you Soulece

By Soulece 💜

Stroke me my love
Let your nimble
Talented fingers
Play my body
Like a piano
Each caress
Igniting me
The instrument of your passion
Sending arpeggios of desire
Down my spine
Let us complete
This musical masterpiece
And write another tomorrow
 Thank you Jason…

💎

Keep At It

By: Jason A. Watson 

Throughout life people experience both pain and suffering

Though getting through these things are pretty complicated

First you must learn to love and believe in yourself

Then, and only then, will you be able to numb the pain

This world is full of death and sorrowIt is filled with hate like no tomorrow

There still is hope for things to get better

Things are closer than they seem to appear

There’s really no need for fearGod wouldn’t put us into situations we can’t handle

This is why things always get betterAs long as you can try to remember

There is no reason to surrender

 I loved this one Jason….❤️    Thank you, Jony 

♦️

With love,

 

By Jony Francissen 

 

“Today”

 Today you are silentolor:

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and your eyes show no feelings.
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d walls echoing promises,

Dust piled up on hope.

You promised me the sky

and turned it into a ceiling.


  

Thank you, Susan… Oh how I relate! 

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Memory

By Susan Burns 

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le=”color: #9497f2″>The memory of that belief
is what’s causing the grief

I’m still in love with the you
I thought I knew
I despise the real you

I thought I’d found something rare
But you were just a player with flair

I will be okay
there will be a day
that false memory fades away

  


  Now my dear poetry friends these poems were HIGH ranking; however, they went over 22 lines and in the rules it stated no more than 22….  But they must be read by everyone because they too are phenomenal … 

  🎖VOICE IN THE WIND

By Cris Fox (also a dear old friend🌹)

 When the Wind begins to call you,

You will hear his voice and follow.

Listen and know, it’s  the song of you soul.

Friendship is the bread of angels,

Gifts of life meant to remind you

Which way to go, His love makes you whole.

The Father is calling, 

He’ll kept you from falling

Creation rejoices today.

The song He is singing

New life His bringing

Whispering Jesus the way

Home to His heart of love.

When the Wind begins to call you,

You will hear His voice and follow.

Listen and know, it’s the song of your soul.

Friendship is the bread of angels

Gifts of life meant to remind you

Which way to go, His love makes you whole.

This message descending

Of love never ending,

A river of Life from the Throne.

Grace that is waking,

You’ll Bend without breaking

With Jesus you’re never alone.

Enter His heart of love.

Beautiful Cris 🌹



  By Anne Stockstill

 

Thinking of Me?

When you touched my hand

And your lips caressed mine,

Were you thinking of me?

When you danced holding me close,

Your breathe on my cheek

Whispering sweet nothings,

Were you thinking of me?

When the lights were low,

Soft, romantic music playing

As you lay close to me,

Where you thinking of me?

When we talked about travel

And made future plans,

Where you thinking of me?

When foreign shores beckoned you,

French wine, fine cuisine served on a terrace,

Overlooking the Eifel Tower and sparkling lights of Paris,

Were you thinking of her?

When you traveled to Rome, Istanbul and St Petersburg,

Changing the look of your face,

Drinking Russian vodka, long white nights,

Were you thinking of her?

Laying on white Dominican beaches,

Playing in the foaming surf,

Where your phone service never worked,

Were you thinking of her?

Did you look into her eyes and repeat unholy vows,

To love and cherish until death,

When the church bells tolled,

Did you really believe the lies you told,

As you married her while you were married to me?

 
 
The judges really loved yours as well….
I do to as I definitely have been in this place too… Married to more than one women at a time….  💜
 

 

  


  💛 And MOST Mentioned 💛

However ~ it is over 22 lines…. 

I AM SOMETHING MUCH MORE 

By @alostwriter

I am something much more

Than what you have in your mind

I am much more than a body

I am much more than a kiss

I am something much more than the breast and

all the rest

I have a heart ,

A mind,A soul,I am not just this body

These lips,

These curves,

I am much more than these

You keep rolling your eyes

Up and down

Seeking to get into

Inch by inch

Into my skin

Making me feel naked even

I have dozen of clothe on my body

still naked i m

I am something much more

Than thisI don’t need you

Your appreciation

You are also one of them

I am much more than

What you think,

Much more than

You can ever imagine

your thinking is limited to this

and I am something beyond this

I am something much more.

By- alostwriter(sy)you can find me @alostwriter

Thank you   ✍🏻


 
 

 I want to thank all of you for your entries. It takes bravery to lay your heart out for the world to read. Well-done and congrats to all of you and our mystery judges too! 

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Please, just say HI! And, What is Your favorite Poetry for Mondays…Tues.. Wed…

Hello!
Hello!

If you should stop by to visit my site here on WordPress, I would love, love, love you, to please, say Hi, and will you please, please, please linger and boondoggle awhile?That means, shoot the breeze, as we say, in Southern United States. Thanks and hope to say howdy back at you real soon!

Come and sit a spell..
Come and sit a spell..

I love children’s poems. This is one of my favorites: Please, share one of your favorites. Over The River and Through The woods 

Over the river, and through the wood,
To Grandmother’s house we go;
the horse knows the way to carry the sleigh
through the white and drifted snow.
Over the river, and through the wood,
to Grandmother’s house away!
We would not stop for doll or top,
for ’tis Thanksgiving Day.
Over the river, and through the wood—
oh, how the wind does blow!
It stings the toes and bites the nose
as over the ground we go.
Over the river, and through the wood—
and straight through the barnyard gate,
We seem to go extremely slow,
it is so hard to wait!
Over the river, and through the wood—
When Grandmother sees us come,
She will say, “O, dear, the children are here,
bring a pie for everyone.”
Over the river, and through the wood—
now Grandmother’s cap I spy!
Hurrah for the fun! Is the pudding done?
Hurrah for the pumpkin pie!

Leaving Adam By Bonnie Jennings

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Leaving Adam

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Eons advance and passed away.
Thought, theory, speculation and opinions, die.
Glancing through lenses, and squinting, at the sky,
Adam, pointing, at the twinkling specs, named the brilliant ballet.
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So, following mankind, up the mountain,
And ascending a rocky path; we embarked.
My feet followed his, upward, to where the sky was arched.
His staff pointed, and the heavens, then filled me, as a refreshing fountain.
 ~
 
An advocate of The Father of Man, I desired what he sought,
Thus’ left the home of my family and upheld his zealous quest
Confidently, I abided and affirmed his every request.
Even, wore his belief’s; did just as he taught.
~
 
One day, dared I asked, Adam, the man of science,
How is Eve today?
And, if looks could kill, then Eve is dead, thus’ left us only, to pray.
Deceased, she is. He answered, with a chill of neglectful defiance.
 ~
 
Man of Science, I spoke so boldly.
At the mountain top; we stand
The stars, you named, and held, in your hand,
However, love you murdered, so coldly.
~
 
This day, I choose the mother
Her love, which first found me
Within the warm and welcoming spirit, in there, dwells she.
 And, today, I accept non-other.
~
 
So, progressing and moving towards her;
 Over, the cliff of doubt, rapidly grabbing her hem, I aim.
Because, after carefully, considering your treacherous, pains,
There, in her grace ~ I seek her, safe harbor
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I choose faith, that which, I cannot see. 
 
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Contact, opening scene
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The Oil

An excerpt from my novel

Cat Dubois Odyssey To Enchantment

By BoJenn or Bonnie Jennings

The Oil

Rise ye, journey and pass over the brook Arnon;

see, I have given into thy hand Sihon king of Heshbon, the Amorite, and his land; begin to possess, and stir up thyself against him in battle.”

—Deuteronomy 2:24.

“‘Hate’ is, simply, a latter-day bully,” Eleanor said. She knew it had an inflated ego and also large physical stature, an appearance that was intimidating to most. But Eleanor knew his game and ignored his posturing threats. “He is one of the chief devils Sihon King of Heshbon, prevented passage through the Amorites’ Territory of Moab.” He will try to prevent the passage of Catherine’s soul to that of our King, Eleanor said, in spirit, to Tadhg, Thomas and Lovey. “It may cost something, but the war is worth it. Do you all agree?”

Eleanor taught them the history behind the demons. However, to Catherine, she was selective in her teachings, as she didn’t want to unduly frighten her.

“Stand in the center, Catherine,” Eleanor pointed.

“Now, form a triangle around her,” she said, pointing to Lovey and Tadhg. “Take your places, please.” This, she allowed Catherine to hear; and it was the signal to them that the war was beginning.

Thomas moved to the Son’s place at the bottom, near the altar.

As they all took their places, there was a quiet—the kind of quiet before a storm. Catherine had

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become aware that the impending doom was real—not a dream or a vision. The air hung heavy with dreadful anticipation.

Catherine’s mother’s apparition manifested, and moved to join Thomas, holding his hand, firmly, in the Son’s spot. She hushed Thomas with the right index to the lips. “Concentrate for Catherine,” she told him. It was the first time they had united in spirit; however, remaining quiet, they often looked at each other and smiled. They knew eternity was theirs; they would have all time to be together, once again.

“We are forming the Holy Trinity,” Eleanor informed them.

Tadhg held a candle, which floated in midair. The third box was next to Eleanor, on the left. Tadhg and Eleanor prayed in Latin, helping Lovey to learn the prayers, too. In unison, they sounded like something not of this world. Their eyes remained closed, and they were not distracted with the sounds of the manor, which were growing more intense. Doors slammed, music boxes played all at once, the sounds were distorted and chaotic. The sound of the tea kettle whistling, books being thrown, and glass shattering, started up in the den. Though they couldn’t see the books flying, they were acutely aware of the noise and thuds against the walls.

Cat stared around with huge eyes, as if to say, “Don’t you guys hear all these loud noises? What is going on?”

“Catherine, dear, close your eyes and pray,” Eleanor said, with her eyes still closed, picking right back up in their prayers where she’d left off. Eleanor voice and demeanor remained cool and calm as she should be—undisturbed by the threats of devils, demons and ghosts of the past.

“You bitch! You’re not getting away!”, “Spirit Daunting” cursed at Cat.

Catherine could not pray. She was too distracted by the cacophony of banging. Then, she laughed—an inappropriate laugh—it was a wailing whine, a sound totally foreign from that of her usual voice. From inside her heart, an image burst forth that all could see.

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“It’s the demon, “Rejection”, Eleanor said, as it powerfully emerged and stood next to her, huge and dark and black. It held a knife at her heart.

Though Cat couldn’t actually see it, the rest of the onlookers watched the demon hover and circle Catherine like a rabid dog. Thomas and Lovey jumped from fear that it would kill Catherine. Moving the knife from the heart and circling her head with the razor-sharp point, it skimmed her hair. A lock of Cat’s black hair fell to the ground. She watched it float down as a chill, cold as ice, moved slowly, torturously, through her spine. Catherine became light-headed and giddy. She looked drunk, and started saying foolish things. “How ‘bout a drink? Anyone wanna get drunk? Come on!”, Cat said. She made very little sense in that moment. She moved nearer under the chandelier and begged,“Come on! Someone boost me up there to swing—it will be fun!” She tried to stand, but she found that her legs were like jello, and collapsed back down into the center of the pyramid.

“Drunk, slob!” Another bratty demon, “Taunter”, sneered at her lying on the floor.

Lovey growled ferociously. He watched Catherine, but threatened the devils coming out from within her. His stance was broad, his legs sturdily planted on the floor in the Father’s place. His back firmed up like steel, and he looked almost statuesque, as the pupils of his golden brown eyes grew wide, and his wiry eyebrows raised. His growl resounded, threateningly low.

“What are you growling at, Lovey?” Catherine pulled herself off the floor, and got up. She went over to him and bent to pet his black head.

Eleanor’s mouth dropped open. Dazed and frozen, her eyes were riveted to the battalion emerging from Catherine’s body as she walked. From her heart and mind, they permeated outward into the room. Eleanor’s heart raced as she took deep breaths to keep from being drawn into the heightened chaos of the atmosphere. They would know she was nervous and anxious if her vibrations changed in the room. They could pick up all negativity; it was what they knew best.

“Catherine, would you move back into the center. Stay within the marked lines. Stay within the center.”

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Eleanor could not allow any negative feelings or any negative human emotions to affect her. The cleansing breaths she continued to take calmed her spirit.

“Where are the back-up angels?”, she wondered. She knew she must begin the prayers again, with Lovey’s help. “How long will we last without help?”, she thought. But, she quickly caught herself, daring not utter any thoughts aloud that could be used in attempts against Catherine’s deliverance, as the devils would have loved gaining the confidence that they had the upper hand. Instead, she focused on the meditations again, to keep herself from fret or worry about the lack of faithful backup. She blocked all negative vibrations in her mind to a full stop. “Deep breaths; have faith. Support will come,” Eleanor reassured herself.

Any words spoken carelessly by Eleanor, that would express doubt in her faith, was what “The Tormentors” hoped for most; the power of suggestion that she was wavering would be just the power they needed. Faltering belief, spoken in insincere prayers or confessions, are a lie. Any ambivalence between her doubt and faith, and “Fear” would readily realize her faith was a lie. Devils smell lies; and they are especially empowered when saints lie to themselves.

So, Eleanor fortified her belief that everything in process was as it should be. She concentrated on her own soulful power, saying to herself, “All is well; every step, every thought, every prayer is in synchronization and known by the King.” She knew that faith could not be conjured. It had to be real and authentic, and believed with all her soul.

Meanwhile, the devils talked among themselves, agreeing to promote every torment in pursuit of doubt. That would be their trump card, as they reminded each other of the special place in their fallen kingdom where previously revered souls, who lied and faked their faith, were banished. Many had lived their lives in the churches of earth; some had even been called saints before they succumbed.

There, those doubters, wearing white robes like monks, but stained with the stench of stale blood, walked around in endless circles, each with their “Big Guidebook”, constantly blaspheming the idea of faith in Supreme Goodness. Even the devils in charge hated being around them, because their holier-than-thou attitudes were empty—a bottomless pit—more deceptive and deceitful that the

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“Accuser of the Brethren”, himself. Behind their eyes lay no souls, nor spirits, nor demons, nor devils, merely a black void of endless babbling of self-righteous lies. Their constant prattle of accusations covered everything from how to be holy, and why one is not, to how to get there. Their rambling was eternal; they lived in the torture of each other’s never shutting up or even quieting the circuitous gibberish of their claims to have the right word or the right message from God. Their place was the depth of everlasting hell.

Eleanor knew about those false prophets, themselves the basis of the brimstone that leeched from their rot across the underworld unto mortal existence. Several times over the centuries, she had crossed the battalion of special recruiting forces to boost their numbers. The devils and demons of that army were solely employed to watch, day and night without rest, for the insincere on earth and across the heavens. Their commanding officers were “Lies”, “Deception” and “Vagueness”.

Eleanor hadn’t lost sight of the forces that swooped out and above Catherine’s body; but Lovey was keeping a good eye on them as they swirled around trying to form a barrage for a unified assault.

Hoping that the special forces, concentrating on her role, had not read her mental moment of doubt, laced with fear, she regained her poise and confidence. But she cautioned herself that she must keep vigilant lest “Fear” and “Doubt” attempt re-entry. “After all,” she reminded herself, “they can make their way into the heart of the best of us.” She began to pray.

“Oh, King. I do believe. I repent of my unbelief. Please, heal me, forgive me and strengthen me, I ask humbly. But, God, where is the back-up? Come quickly. What else can I learn? This warrior is aging; I have had patience, but my stamina is not what it once was,” Eleanor inquired with matter-of- fact, internal supplication.

“Fear” smirked at Eleanor, staring at her like she was a joke. It circled her, breathing foul yellow sulphur from it’s large nares. They had met before, and he was relentless; but she was a seasoned warrior. He knew her weaknesses. She knew his. Their eyes met and centered on the other’s assumptions. He smirked again.

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Eleanor’s affect remained blunted. A poker face of absolutely no expression would be her temporary defense. She would not allow him to assume anything. “No reading my thoughts will or can be accomplished by this enemy,” she said, armored and braced with the power of truth and goodness in her heart. She would not blink nor show any nervous energy, but she caught herself just as she started to look downward, feeling a bit weary from her temporary humanness. She fought that natural reflex and looked straight at “Fear’s” eyes.

“Your comrades are missing, I see?”, said “Fear”, with sarcastic laughter as loud as ever.

“Mind your own battalion,” Eleanor said, thinking at the time that the best defense was short responses to enemy questions meant to rattle, confuse; or foster itself, and doubt of a Supreme God. But, she realized, as soon as she’d said it, that she had actually made an error in strategy. “Fear” had prompted her to look at it; and that allowed it access through her eyes. Worse, she had responded with words.

She shouldn’t have engaged at all because “Fear” was known to throw its daggers into anyone’s eyes; and, through mutual eye contact, it can enter the soul of anyone who opens that door of opportunity. Susceptible humans—and almost all of them are vulnerable, at times—welcome “Fear’ by seeing it act out. “Fear” loves eye games. One of its favorite weapons is an evil eye, a bloody scene or a the sight of a horrific tragedy. Her best plan from now on would be no communication, whatsoever. She would, from this point forward, yield to the weaker posturing of using as little eye contact as possible to deflect entry.

Eleanor knew better, and she quickly reviewed her understanding of the demon. “Fear will not use its weapon on me,” she thought. “His weapons are shallow, but deadly.” She remembered, “Usually, this devil’s intimidations take years to kill…like planting the seeds for heart attacks and cancers that require time to manifest. But, not always does it take years for ‘Fear’ to accomplish its mission. Sometimes it can manifest so much fright that a human dies instantly from a heart attack or an aneurism.”

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Eleanor, as if they were in a casual conversation between old friends and not a battlefield.

“‘Fear’ sneaks up on its prey like a cat,” Eleanor thought as the devil tried to edge into her mind, and engage her eyes, again. “It tortures the mind, relentlessly—a task master of pain and suffering that loves to watch itself grow to influence others privy to its first victim. It can sadistically torture a victim until death; and it can cause victims to persecute and kill others.” Eleanor further considered the overwhelming emotion that the harbinger of robbed rationale casts on the unsuspecting—“Fear practices no restraints, leaves a person senseless, and depletes all empathy and compassion.” Finally, she concluded in her formulation of added defense, “If God didn’t step into play, the entire universe could be savagely destroyed by this one wicked entity.” She quieted her mind.

Lovey growled again at the sight of him. Low and deep, he warned the evil thing. He moved staying in his assigned spot, but walking in a circle following the creature as he began floating over and around Catherine. “Fear” snarled back at Lovey, but Lovey didn’t wilt. He gave the dog a hawkish look.

Eleanor didn’t blink or respond. Her gaze, away from “Fear”, was steadfast, showing no emotions.

Lovey did not cower either. He stood bravely, remembering the time when he and Eleanor had encountered this demon during the burning at the stake of witches. The witches had not been part of a battalion of demons and devils, but were from their own orders. “Fear” had hated them because they had powers unlike intimidation. Lovey saw the demon laugh and mock the witches. He witnessed the evil entity cause the flames to burn slower than normal. He laughed when they died, having suffered a longer death process than should have been. He saw “Fear” use serial killers who tortured their victims before killing them; and had not Eleanor been present to soothe the minds of “Fear’s” prey, then the soul would have been lost for eternity in the flames.

At the witches’ burnings, Eleanor and Lovey had brought a satchel filled with prayers, and ointments and aromas that caused the poor, tortured souls, relief. “Fear” had watched them, there, unable to stop them because God had commissioned them, just as now. “Fear” hated Eleanor and the stupid dog that had foiled “Fear’s” mission.

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“Lovey, what are you seeing? What’s wrong, boy?” Catherine saw he was nervous, but couldn’t see “Fear”. She noticed Eleanor was acting strangely, too, looking at something near her. Lovey’s growls were directed to the same place beside her. “Something is happening,” Cat said. “What is taking place?” Catherine’s intuitions, over the past days, had grown stronger, providing her the ability to read the outer world. While she couldn’t see the spirits, she had gained the sense of feeling when the electric charge of negative forces were in the air. Such forces caused the hair on her arms to stand up. She tried to perceive the meaning of Eleanor’s odd, unsettling expressions. It was as if Eleanor was speaking to invisible beings in the room as she watched intently, her eyes wide open. She stood up only to feel dizzy and extremely weak. Then, another spirit stepped from Catherine’s core.

“The Accuser of the Brethren’s” demon helper, “Guilt” had emerged. It loved to occupy thoughts and memories. It was not affected by the Holy Trinity. Holding its dagger over Catherine’s mind, it did not jab or pierce her, for “Guilt” was governed by “Fear”, as well as “The Accuser”, and was not free to make final decisions. There was rank and file and order to their battalions.

However, “Guilt” had free-range over daunting and taunting of the mind—jabbing as it so wanted. But, “Guilt”, like any person under submission, must be given an order or decree to inflict total destruction. Any finality, such as the act of taking a life by death, by none other than the Supreme God, had to be ordained. Neither “Fear” nor “Guilt” had such orders for Elizabeth Catherine Dubois.

“Fear”, without the help of any devilish comrades, aimed its cruel sword at her mind and poked relentlessly, knowing that she must be defeated. “Guilt” stood watching, sending her accusing memories as “Fear” jabbed. Feeling faint all over again, Catherine fell to her knees.

“Eleanor, I feel so terribly weak,” she said. Cat doubled over and then slid to her knees holding her stomach. She was feeling the effects of the jabs.

Lovey stood waiting to pounce, but he too had rank and had to follow Eleanor’s orders.

Another devil creeped out from the shell of Catherine’s body—“Resentment”. Much like “Guilt”,

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“Resentment” wasn’t troubled by the pyramid of protection. It held a sword pressing into her stomach. “Take that. Feel good?”, it mocked, digging its lance deeper.

Shadows almost took on life as they appeared to do their dance on the walls of the sitting room, as the afternoon sun set and a dark ominous cloud positioned itself over the manor. Soon, thunder, lightning and wind focused above the home on the hill.

“Resentment” took its claws and placed them around Cat’s head. “Remember why you hate everyone? You have good reason. Remember Glory Town? Oh, how those terrible Christian judges you hated you for all these years; and then, they burned your barn down with all your animals. Come on, remember them? You have good reason to resent them.”

“Don’t listen to that, Catherine! That demon is here to stop us from saving your soul by confusing you! Don’t listen. You’re above all that!”, Eleanor instructed, sending her plea with her mind. Cat looked at Eleanor. She chose to listen her. Then, Cat vomited, while lying on her side.

“Why is it so dark in here? What is happening?”, Cat pleaded. “Please, tell me what’s going on?” A jolt of lightening flashed directly overhead; then, the rumbling shook the manor house. Then, there was complete silence.

The lights went out throughout the home and, in the darkness, the devil soldiers glared at each other. Their eyes were likened to something not of this world, and Cat could then clearly see the images of the enemies. Speechless, she looked at their glowing, iridescent green irises. They all were a ghastly green—their eyes just horizontal slits on distorted faces that shared the room. She was even more alarmed there were so many of them.

Tadhg used his index fingers and pointed them at the candelabra, commanding its light with a flick of his fingers. “Light,” he commanded. The power was still out, but the flames from the candles began to glow amber.

As the light grew, projected throughout the room were the shadows of demons and devils on the walls. The figures moved, brandishing their spears, bows and knives in their hands. It was like

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watching a movie on the wall. They were fighting other beings. There was a frenzy of killing by the demons.

“Fear” immediately issued forth the fear of death and dying. He cast a spell directed at Cat’s pineal gland, and warned her, “See the war you face? Keep it up; keep believing that crazy woman with you, and this will be your fate!”

“Don’t believe what your fears are telling you, Catherine!”, Eleanor told her through telepathy. “This is meant to distract you from what we are doing here. Focus on our goal.”

The manor grew darker again, but the lightning generated another baritone rumble followed by a booming blast; light flashed across the dance hall. Faces of death shown close to the lines of the pyramid. Cat gasped, but Eleanor hushed her, “Shh. Don’t react.”

Minor demons gathered in the dance room. The commanding devils of countless kinds of torment and doubt pushed their way to the front of the demons and circled around the symbol of the Blessed Trinity. The minor demons,who were in training, chittered, producing an annoying high-pitched noise like a room of squirrels. The devils positioned themselves proudly around the pyramid.

Some entered wearing the uniforms of Roman soldiers, with red capes draping across their puffed chests. They glared and said nothing. One devil even knocked a chittering demon away with a hiss of “Shut up!”

From a different plane, Eleanor heard the chants of angels on their way. They were coming. But, for now, she was alone with Lovey and Tadhg. She focused on the comfort of hearing the angel’s approach. Peace would come with them.

“Catherine, you must open the third box, now! Take it!” Eleanor arose from her position, on the left, and moved towards Lovey, at the top. She gently caused the box to raise off the ground, using her index finger which pointed at the box, and then moved it towards Catherine. It floated gently and came to rest in Catherine’s arms. “Open it!”, Eleanor pleaded, then moving back to the triangle’s left.

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was a friend and not an enemy at all. Her mother’s appearance had confirmed and reassured her of Eleanor’s intentions, even if nothing else had. Cat was ready.

“Open the box!”, Eleanor exclaimed, again; and, with that, Catherine ripped it open with frantic tremulous fingers and hands.

“Be careful! Gentle!”, Eleanor called out, belatedly.

Catherine weakened as another spirit stepped out of her core. She almost collapsed. She tried to move out of the edges of the triangle, as the devil’s grasp was painful. It held her soul in its hands— twisting it, trying to pull it out of her.

“No, you must stay in the center, Catherine!”, Eleanor yelled. “Stay in the triangle. It will protect you.”

Lovey growled more ferociously, and deeper. He stood up and was ready to pounce.

The third entity, “Self-Loathing”, drew its fists and pressed it to Catherine’s stomach holding her soul tightly in its grip. Beside “Self-Loathing” stood “Resentment”.

“I feel sick. I’m going to get sick!”, Catherine screamed.

“You’ll be fine. Get sick. It’s understandable,” Eleanor informed her. “It’s just temporary.”

“Eleanor, what is going on?”, Cat begged, lying on the floor, on her side, with her head angled up at the ceiling.

Lovey began to bark, trying to motivate Cat to move. “Cat, get up! Listen to me!”, Lovey tried to tell her in her mind. “Open the box! Do what Eleanor told you! Get up! You have to get up!” But, Catherine could not hear Lovey.

All three devils had their corps rallied around them and outside the pyramid. The lesser devils stood together, filed by rank, and in combat stance ready to strike when given the order.

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right there in Catherine’s living room—not somewhere else, in a make-believe movie.

The leaves outside cast their shadows; they took on an energy all their own. They made threatening movements. The leaves were just another part of the devils’ corps; they were not of the King’s army but were in close allegiance with the devils. The leaves and their frightening shadows did just as they were commanded. “Make her scared! Show her decapitation—her cut-off head!”, ordered “Fear” with a loud, deep, gruff, brassy voice.

The corps devils held their weapons of arrows, bows, knives, fire axes, clubs and spears raised at Lovey and Eleanor. Lovey bit at one, and then another, darting forward and back, nipping, barking and growling at them.

“Lovey what are you biting at? Are you alright?”, Cat asked. She still wasn’t able to see into the spiritual plane.

A lesser spirit stepped forward, lunging at Lovey. Without a command from a superior, it stuck a knife in Lovey’s heart, and little Lovey fell to the ground. With one last whimper, he stopped breathing.

“Lovey! Lovey, what’s wrong?” Cat started to move toward him.

Tadhg prayed hard for Lovey, but stayed at his own post without moving. He wanted to strike the devil, but he could not leave his center spot in the Trinity, next to Catherine. He could only look at the puppy’s lifeless body, limp and still. A tear swelled in his eye, but he dared not go to him.

Eleanor motioned at Tadhg to catch his attention. “Keep your mind off Lovey!”, she warned. They needed to stay focused. Tadhg composed himself, instantly shifting focus to their combined prayer efforts. He was to hold up the walls of prayer until help arrived. It had to be a strong wall of intentions, or else it would be useless.

“Catherine, the oil—now! Inside the third box. Get it!”, Eleanor screamed at Cat.

“The oil?” Panting with nervousness, and fumbling with the box, Catherine finally unwrapped the package and got out its contents.

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Inside the box was a chrismal, a small, crystal vessel to store the mixture—it’s the only object that could hold the oil of which Eleanor had spoken. Cat’s voice was shaking like a leaf; she couldn’t imagine what oil had to do with her precious Lovey, but she did as she was told and opened the Gothic crystal top. “What happened to Lovey?”

In the background the little demons’ chitters turned into a deep vibrational moan as they swayed in unison back and forth. Soon it became the chant uttered by the monk demons, “Ooouuummmhh… Oooouuummmhhh…”

Cat actually felt the deep vibration bass tone of their voices. “What’s that?”, she asked.

“Never mind that. Quick, and be careful. Sprinkle three drops on Lovey’s heart,” Eleanor instructed Cat. Eleanor never took her eyes of “Fear”. “Don’t get out of the triangle. Be careful,” she cautioned Catherine again.

Cat nodded, understanding. She moved on her knees to her little pal. Lovey’s body was still writhing in the area of the Trinity, as he lay where he’d fallen, maintaining the formation even up to that fatal point of his surrender. Cat’s hands shook, and she fumbled with the glass vial, as the demons started closing in on Eleanor’s Trinity formation. Normally, they stayed far away from such things, but they were emboldened and continued on, starting to press in tighter. “Perhaps, they were winning the war?”, Cat wondered.

The monk’s changed their chanting to, “Ahhhh HAAAA, ahhh HAAAA!” Then, more insistent than before, a sound erupted from them that caused human nerves to melt in anxiety and shake all over. “FEEEEeeee AAAAKoooo!” They directed the noise at Cat’s hands, which were trembling as directed by the negative hysterical vibrations aimed at them.

Catherine moved within the triangle to Lovey’s lifeless body. Though her hands were shaking uncontrollably, she administered the prescribed three drops to Lovey’s heart. She rubbed it through his black curly hair. “Don’t die, Lovey, don’t die!”, she pleaded. Her tears fell on his soft black coat. “What is wrong? Dear God, oh, Lovey!”, Catherine sobbed. “What’s going on here, Eleanor? His heart stopped.”

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“Pour the oil over your head now, NOW!”, Eleanor ordered, but calmly.

“My head?” Cat fumbled again, almost dropping it, but barely managed to catch the precious oil with the same hand. Catherine lifted the chrismal above her head. “Three drops?”

She did not notice the voice, from the position of the Son in the Holy Trinity, that spoke with such strength and love, as that voice relayed commands from the base of the triangle to Eleanor.

“The oil. Take the oil gently. There, that’s right; lift it above your head.” It was Eleanor’s voice. She sounded like an angel, a calm in the storm. Undisturbed by the events at hand, she spoke so beautifully that Cat was able to hold the crystal vessel without shaking, and with confidence.

“Sprinkle the oil over your head, now,” Eleanor added again, when it seemed like Cat wasn’t moving fast enough. “Come on, gently now. Here you go…one, two, three drops.”

At her prompt, Catherine began to sprinkle three drops rather blindly over her hair, but suddenly the glass vessel flew out of her hands, as if someone had hit it with a baseball bat. It did not shatter, but it flew across the pyramid. Before it passed out of the triangular lines, Eleanor lurched forward to grab it. She landed face down, the flask with the chrism oil clenched tightly within her right hand.

“The Spirit of Intimidation” put his clawed foot over Eleanor’s wrist, holding the oil. He put enough pressure to break her wrist bone, but Eleanor still refused to let go. “Only over her one- hundredth death would the demon get it,” she courageously told herself.

Still remaining quiet, Catherine was knocked down to the floor by “Physical Abuser”. She began to make verbal jabs at the evil crew, even though they were invisible to her. “Hey, you bastards! You think you’re tough, huh?”

“Be quiet; don’t talk to them,” came a warning from the Son’s point. Thomas peeped into the conversation. “Don’t talk!”

“Why?”, Catherine whispered, looking toward the base of the triangle. “What? Who is that? Thomas?”

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“Not now. Later. Hush!”, Eleanor advised. “Later, or else they will read us.”

Catherine looked back at Eleanor, “But how will I talk to you?”

“Remember when you were young? When you could read others? Do it now,” Eleanor ordered Catherine. Cat flashed back for a millisecond, and remembered how she could read the thoughts of others.

“In your heart—in your mind—read me. You will know what to do. Now, no more talking.” Eleanor got a visual lock on Cat’s eyes. Cat nodded, “Yes”; she understood. They nodded in unison, knowing now that their eyes recognized each other’s signals, energies and vibrations.

The fallen chrismal was protected by Eleanor’s fingers from where she’d snatched it. However, her wrist was painfully crushed, with her fingers barely moving where she lay, under the pig-faced devil that snorted mustard sulphur and sneered at her attempts to free herself. With his smashing stomps intended to disable her, Eleanor still remained calm.

The chrismal slipped from her broken fingers. But, at least she had allied herself with patience, which helped to stave off the proof of her pain with a mask of indifference. “Clever, swine,” she uttered in a sarcastically sweet tone of voice. But, Eleanor was losing control, and Tadhg signaled her. “Stay focused. It doesn’t hurt. It’s in the human mind. You don’t feel pain,” he reminded her. “Concentrate, no distractions.”

“The Spirit of Intimidation” leaned close to Eleanor’s ear, still holding her down. He had seen her mouth move, and call him a swine. “What? Say it again,” he mocked. “There, that’s what I thought. You are just like us. You name call, too,” he laughed, as he applied more weight to his foot and Eleanor’s bones crunched again.

“Mustard yellow skin—so, handsome!”, Eleanor jeered. Tears from the pain almost fell from her eyes, but she managed to hold them at bay. There was no way she would give into them. She was too proud; she would not show defeat, pain or annoyance. She heeded Tadhg’s reminders. Instead, she gave the devil a devilish smile. She played it’s own game.

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“You’re just a loser. Face it, you have always been a bully; and you will never be anything but one.” She smiled again showing the grit of her teeth through her pink pretty lips. She was an angel who could rally to mask herself at any given moment; and the cocky expressions she mustered seemed more frightening and intimidating than the demon had predicted. Eleanor, then, transformed her face, putting on a plastered mask appearance, her lips beginning to expand like a clown’s, and her teeth growing dark yellow and long, like a mule’s.

“The Spirit of Intimidation” stepped back at the sight of her, turning to hand the figurative baton of relay to “Pride”. “Yes, there you have it, ” he told to “Pride” with a hearty laugh.

“Think you’re better than us, huh?” Pride taunted, not buying her game. He knew her weapons of warfare were a smoke screen. It may have baffled “Intimidation”, but not “Pride.” “Pride” stepped forward and pushed “Intimidation” back with its armed, metal appendage.

Still, the chrismal lay on the floor, with the chain woven between Eleanor’s crushed fingers, but the chrismal, itself, ungrasped, beneath her palm. The pig, “Intimidation”, might have forgotten about the reason he crushed her wrist, but she did not forget. “The demons and devils have short-term memory loss and often forget what they’re doing,” Eleanor noted to herself, wanting to use that against them in the matter of the chrismal. She could not pick it up with broken fingers, but it was laying, under her hand, just outside the triangle of the Trinity, so its power would be limited. Without the help of the Supreme, everything seemed hopeless.

“Pride”, so debonair, with coal black hair slicked back and falling upon a black silk suit, saw the chrismal. Being face down, with both “Pride” and “Intimidation” standing near and ready to physically and mentally overpower her again, there was only one option left for Eleanor to alter their dire situation: prayer.

It wasn’t that she hadn’t asked for help; she had. Giving up was out of the question, and continuing to ask through prayer, and believe, was the cloak for any seasoned warrior. But, Eleanor had to deal with “Pride” on her own account, too; the demon had begun constantly prompting her to throw in her white towel. And, even old warriors wearied and doubted in times of duress and pain.

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This was one of those times—well, almost.

“Unthinkable,” was the response she molded to “Pride’s” taunts. With, countless successful battles and accomplishments behind her, to let disbelief slip in, or surrender to such a pig, was not an option. She knew she had to think of all the potential counter-attacks, and believe with absolute and solid clarity, and even just as much faith as a tiny mustard seed, to move the demons away and gain the chrismal.

Eleanor visualized a sword, holding it up, in her mind, to maneuver it. The sword was her symbol for her faith and belief, that no weapons formed against them could or would prosper. The sword she manifested appeared vertically, above and in front of her, its inlaid handle about a foot from the tip of her nose. The gold handle shone so bright as to cast its light on Eleanor’s face. All she need do was to wield it with her faith.

Suddenly, precisely, the blade turned horizontal in the air. For one brief moment, everyone watched with fascination; then “Pride” tried to turn Eleanor’s head in another direction, so she wouldn’t be able to direct its path. But, looking at the blade to guide it wasn’t necessary; Eleanor used her faith, her mind and her belief to move it through the air. Though its blade was short—15 inches in length—the weapon began stabbing at “Pride’s” handsome, chiseled cheeks. “Pride” defended its boastful face, covering it with its pincerlike extensions. But, the sword strategically darted at the demon, over and over again, with deft precision. It ripped in razored slices through the cloth on the sleeves of its forearm extensions. “Pride” tried to dodge it, finally moving away from Eleanor’s reach, trying to escape, but the blade, independent from her grasp, followed him, jabbing continuously, “Stab, stab stab…” No other demon was there to help him as he fell backwards.

There was no time to laugh at “Pride” as he cowered away. However, Tadhg and Eleanor both filed the vision away, so they might chuckle later at the demon’s forever predictable nature. Yet, the war was far from being over. The other demons and devils had re-appeared, and were not impressed with Eleanor’s stunt.

Catherine could see that Eleanor’s hand was oddly crushed, with the chrismal still beneath her

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palm, and that Lovey was still downed, despite the applying of the powerful, spiritual oil. Catherine reached out to pet Lovey. She felt a gentle rise in his side, his breath so very faint—he was alive!

Catherine knew, then, that as much as she wanted to comfort Lovey, to whisper to him and tell him that he was going to be okay, she had to help Eleanor; so she began to crawl slowly toward her. She knew she would have to seize the chrismal for Eleanor, before the other devils saw how easily they could take it. She crawled, little bit by little bit, on her belly, towards Eleanor and away from Lovey.

Eleanor’s sword had only been a temporary divergent. “Fear” stepped out, once again, from behind the middle of the other demons and devils who had, by then, gathered around “Pride”, and stood next to its evil comrades—“Self-Loathing” and “The Accuser of the Brethren”. “Fear” and “The Accuser” were both considered to be the big guns of the command. “Where does she think she’s going?”, “Fear” challenged the others, in jest.

Eleanor, aware of the wicked ones’ stances, darted her gaze to Catherine. Eleanor’s eyes warned her to watch her every move. Then, without hesitation, and in one swoop, she twisted her full body to free one arm, so she could scoop the chrismal out from under her crushed hand and set it in flight towards Catherine.

“Dammit!”, Catherine screamed as the burning, piercing knife of “Fear” darted through Catherine’s arm, just as she had reached out and caught the chrismal before it jetted out of the Trinity boundary.

“Oh, hear Cat curse! Ha ha ha ha…”, “Mocking” screamed, leading the other dark forces to laughter for a moment.

“Ignore it! It can’t hurt you, unless you let it!”, Eleanor quickly advised Catherine. “Hang onto the oil. You’re in the Trinity now. The oil has full power in your hands. Use it wisely! Douse yourself.” Then, before talking further, Eleanor took a breath. “Catherine, listen to me, all things are not as they seem. Anoint yourself with the oil and the sign of the Trinity. Three drops of the oil, now. Hurry!”

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Catherine immediately dribbled three drops of the oil into her hand, and anointed herself by making the sign of the cross on her forehead. “In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost,” she murmured aloud, reciting it in her mind, as well.

“In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost,” Cat whispered again. Then, she kissed the chrismal and made the sign of the cross over her heart, and then over her mind, again, at the pineal gland.

Eleanor smiled. Catherine had done it right.

The pack of demons cringed and moaned, “Stop her!” They cried and cursed with foul contempt for God.

Catherine moved over to Eleanor and shook out a few more drops from the chrismal. She made the sign of the cross over Eleanor’s forehead, and gathered her close. Then, after Eleanor’s anointing, she moved back to Lovey, and doused him once more.

Tadhg told her to move back into the center—that the war was not finished.

She moved back into the center, as he instructed. “Keep your mind clear. Focus your thoughts on your deliverance and being free, once, and for all time,” he told her. “Lovey and Eleanor’s conditions were incidents created to cause you to lose sight of the mission.” Tadhg was being very straight forward and highly focused. He had no emotion in his voice.

The demons circled the pyramid. They started calling Tadhg names, “Faggot, momma’s boy, wimp,” and so forth. Tadhg never blinked. He never broke his faith; he didn’t waver in strength. Still, he showed no emotion. He was solidly and firmly planted in his conviction, and that spiritual stronghold of might, was the reason Eleanor had chosen him.

The demons, then, swirled in a dance around Thomas, who stood at the Son’s position. He was shaking, with “Fear” breathing on him.

Tadhg looked at the situation, and with a wave of thought, slammed “Fear” back against the wall.

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But Tadhg made no comment. “Fear” left Thomas alone from that time forward. The other demons and devils backed off, as well.

Tadhg had used the conviction of his thoughts to bind the devils in leather cords, and cast them on the floor, whining like sissy boys who called out for their mommies. Not once did Tadhg blink, smile or look at them in their dilemma. He looked elsewhere, standing like a statue of granite.

Tadhg then motioned for Eleanor and Cat to come closer to him, so they were near enough to touch. He, then, reached to each of them, gently bringing their heads together with his, and whispered to them to close their eyes.

Eleanor softly prayed, once more, reminding the Supreme God of their need for reinforcement. She also humbly thanked Him for their safety. Even though there had been no apparent presence of any of the Holy Alliance, Eleanor knew they must be present as the battle took no casualties. Lovey was still alive; and Catherine, throughout the battle, seemed to have, incrementally, gained understanding of all the spiritual concepts.

Outside the walls of the triangle, and outside the manor, roared the weather. Booming thunder, lightning, howling wind, hail, tornadoes and every fearful, trembling effect were cast by the demons. One demon, named “Retaliation”, and its alter ego, “Jealousy”, moved to the window. “Retaliation” carried a staff which resembled a lightning rod. He held it up at the sky, visible through the window pane, and started yelling gibberish words at the weather.

“Eleanor?”, Catherine whispered using mind talk.

“Yes,” Eleanor replied, looking at Catherine from the floor where she lay.

“Why does bad weather come with you and the others?”, Catherine whispered in her mind.

Eleanor chuckled. “There is a war happening right now, my dear. Surely, you would expect to see some evidence of that on the earthly plane?”

Catherine sighed, “Yes, I understand—we should see something, I guess. But, what should I do right now?”

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“Pray. Just pray without ceasing. Talk to God. Give Him thanks and praise,” Eleanor instructed.

“Alright. How should I start?”, Cat asked.

“Start as a child would. Remember? Start with ‘Our Father…’” Then, Eleanor smiled at Catherine; she could see that Catherine had gotten the idea.

“Our Father who art in heaven…”, Catherine began. She spoke out loud. She wanted the demons and devils to hear her. “…Hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.”

“The most important part to recite and remember is ‘on earth as it is in Heaven’”, Eleanor said.

“Shall I start again?”, Cat asked.

“Yes, that would be excellent. And, let the prayer become the life in you. Let it arise from within every cell of your body. Let it permeate outside to the floor you lie upon, to the chrismal you hold, to Lovey as you touch him; and, then, to anything you see, and to those things you see not. Believe and depend on every word, as it is the, Almighty himself, truth. Believe in God, and never let go of your belief. Even as the storms come and go, and the waters rage, never doubt. Always believe, and always, even if you’re frightened, remember to pray this prayer. Call out for help, Elizabeth Catherine Dubois, as He will always hear you; He will always come. You must trust, obey and believe.” Eleanor’s voice seemed to fade into the rhythm of the weather, as if it were part of a larger whole. But the weather began to worsen, in spite of Cat’s prayers.

“How much longer do I pray? When will it go away?”, Catherine asked.

“Never stop praying, Catherine. The storms will be here all the time—and, so will He. Keep praying; never cease.” Eleanor graciously spoke just like a fairy godmother, just like an angel, would. She seemed to glow with love that permeated every cell of light.

Lovey’s little tail began to wag; and though he remained exhausted, he was alive, and his faith had been restored; his belief had grown stronger.

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“Sleep Elizabeth…sleep…and rest. The war is eternal. You must learn to rest despite the appearances of things and events that bring unrest.” Eleanor kissed Catherine’s brow. “When weary, rest. It is imperative for all human warriors. You are now a warrior.” Eleanor took the few drops of remaining oil from the chrismal, and, touching her forehead again, said, “I anoint you my warrior princess. In the name of our Father, in the name of our Brother, and in the name of the Holy Spirit, be the warrior you were called to be, forever more…”

The thunder, lightning and wind grumbled threats of imminent disaster. “Retaliation” and ”Jealousy” stood at the window, commanding more and more noise, lightning, and visual threats of impending doom to join in their performance. The more terrible the weather worsened, the more Eleanor and Catherine and Tadhg ignored the evil forces, the louder those two devils tried to distract them. “Fear” joined them; he would not give up after being slammed into the wall by Tadhg. “Fear” had directed “Retaliation” and “Jealousy” to continue the battle.

“Jealousy”, having gained no ground at all because of Catherine’s acceptance of Eleanor’s wisdom and power and grace, rather than her becoming jealous of Eleanor’s gifts, the demon then tried to point out every single temptation towards “Jealously” imaginable. The demon spoke to Catherine’s mind, taunting her about Eleanor’s beautiful light that shone in her from the inside out, and, then, the fact that Eleanor was so much more talented and had gifts beyond her simple Catherine Dubois pitiful self, and, then, that Eleanor was old and ancient and she was nothing, could never be anything, in comparison, thus she should seek to steal Eleanor’s talents, beauty and age-old wisdom.

It didn’t work. Cat didn’t buy into any of those thoughts. In fact, she had fallen asleep during the assault.

Catherine was bored with the comparison of herself to Eleanor. She slept, just as Eleanor had suggested.

Eleanor thought nothing of their despicable tactics. She and Lovey knew their evil devices. But, Eleanor was a bit surprised that Catherine slept so well, amidst all the ruckuses and feeble attempts to cast doom upon them.

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What Eleanor did not know yet, was that, while dreaming, Catherine’s mind filled with ideas and thoughts poured into her subconscious from “Bad Dreams”, himself. He issued her ill feelings and concocted misperceptions of all that was real in conscious time awake; and his brother, “Scary Night Visions”, joined him to torment her in her time to rest. It was just another an invasion of what should have been a promise of her first, truly restful sleep in years; but “All is fair in war,” the brothers said to each other, reveling in their abilities.

To top off their insidious attack, they plotted to have the promise of sleep, when she awoke from the nightmares and tried to go back to sleep, robbed by their cousin, “Insomnia”, who would dish out the endless, looping tapes of creeping memories and worries of past and future.

Catherine’s dreams were filled with Thomas, who, suddenly, was accusing her of leaving him. “Is he really angry with me?”, she wondered.

Oh, and the tapes and whispers that “The Accuser of the Brethren” mastered and brought to the assault party were subtle and intruded when least expected. The devils were relentless.

In her mind, Catherine saw waves, pictures of mommies and daddies, and heard cries that mingled with the sadness of her forgotten childhood. Vivid faces of oddly familiar people flashed simultaneously with the bolts of lightning. With the thunder, thousands of distant voices screamed at her and called her names, “Idiot child! Thomas is gone all because of you!”

But Catherine did not move or flinch as the devils and demons spat at her, yelling their lies and torments as she lay there with, interestingly, a smile on her face. She knew there was absolutely nothing she could do about any of the accusations. But…they were no longer hers. After all, she had nothing to do with Thomas’ death, or, for that matter, any other tragedies she had experienced in her life. She had finally forgiven herself for being unique as a child, not at all a freak like she’d previously thought. She rested in the assurance that God did love her, and He had not and would never blame her at all.

“The oil is working,” Lovey said to Eleanor, so pleased he could barely contain his joy. He was

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jumping up and down with puppy love. “It’s working, Tadhg; it’s working!”

Tadhg continued to stand in statuary-like place. He would not react until he knew the war was finished. Then, he would rejoice.

“Yes, for right now; but she will need more faith,” Eleanor observed.

“Where will she get more?”, Lovey asked Eleanor.

“From her own belief, Lovey,” she answered. “It will increase or decrease, but either way, we are a prayer away. It’s up to Catherine now. She has seen, heard and witnessed the power of God; and that is more than most humans will ever experience,” Eleanor sighed, with emotional release in the completeness of their mission. “It’s all but finished. It’s almost time to leave her, but the beasts continued to haunt her tonight, with their cruel accusations in dreams, trying to rouse her, to get her going, to get her tapes stuck in play mode, but they have been unable to do it at this time.

Just then, “Physical Abuser” approached Catherine, and kicked her again. But, she didn’t moan or turn in pain. In fact, she didn’t feel the kick or any pain. Her fear levels had temporarily subsided. Instead, she rested in peace.

“My goodness, she was only four!”, Eleanor exclaimed, as she defended Catherine using sarcasm as she addressed “The Accuser of the Brethren”, and his entourage, “Anger”, “Hatred” and “Lack of Forgiveness”. They would stop at nothing to break Catherine, if they could. “You idiots need to go. We’ve won; or, rather, Catherine has won her soul and her life back,” Eleanor informed them, smiling at them with the confidence of victory. “Ta Da! Go now!”

“Not yet! We’re not finished,” “The Accuser” spoke as an angry retort, stepping forward, then, into Eleanor’s space.

“Self-Loathing” began sending its share of memories, laced with daggers of self-accusation and blame, “Look at you! So what if you’re only four!”, as they all stared with disdain. “Self-Loathing” continued, “You’re an adult now and what do you have to say for yourself? Oh, you had the comfort of your mummy and daddy who erased your memories! Stupid girl! Too bad for you that the

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memories are coming back! Now, it’s time to pay. ‘Guilt’ and ‘Shame’, ‘Remorse’ and ‘Depression’, and, let’s see what other of our black magic we can add on, will always be with you. You’ve lost years of penance. Brat! Thought you’d escape?”, they laughed. “We’ve finally gotten to you, Catherine.

“We won’t stop or give up!”, “Self-Loathing” shouted, thinking it best to remind her of those threats; however, Tadhg had joined them, grabbed the hateful devil by the throat, with all his Gaelic might, and cast it all the way to kingdom come’s opposite.

Cat didn’t flinch. “The accusations didn’t work,” she said as she smiled and whispered to her four companions, Eleanor, Tadhg, Thomas and her little black dog, Lovey, all alive and well.

Thunder rumbled and clashed against the manor, and rain swept across the roof the entire night; yet it seemed Catherine was unaware of the roars, or the screaming of the voices which began to quiet after several hours had passed.

“The oil has protected her,” Eleanor told Lovey.

“The oil that represents the Trinity,” Lovey added.

“She has the weapons of warfare. Catherine is courageous,” Eleanor told Lovey. “And,” addressing the little fur ball of love, formally, she continued, “‘His Glove’, we have completed our assigned tasks. The time has come to depart. You must say your goodbyes, little fella.” Eleanor patted his head.

“His Glove”, Lovey, whimpered. He didn’t want to say goodbye. He had grown fond of Catherine.

Thomas squeezed his mother’s hand, then released his grip and ran to kiss Catherine on the cheek. “Goodbye, sister. We will meet again, soon.” He ran back to their mum, who then walked over to Catherine, lovingly said her goodbyes, rubbing Catherine’s head and stroking her hair one last time. She took Thomas’ hand, nodded goodbye and thank you, then both vanished into eternal bliss.

The angels never arrived; they never had to come. The white feathers, which held the place of the angels at the right of the pyramid, now, rose up in a twirl and, “Poof”, disappeared.

Within Eleanor was a force as great as all the supernatural beings of God. She just needed the

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reminder that the power of God was within her, whether the angels were by her side or not. Eleanor didn’t need any back up. And, God had trusted her from the beginning.

Tadhg told “His Glove”, “All the voices faded away to peaceful quietness.”

“Yes, but without us, how will she do?”, Lovey said, as anxious as cockapoos often are. “She will never be alone,” Eleanor said, firmly.

She whispered then, in Elizabeth Catherine Dubois’ ear, “You will never be alone, but you must ask. Only will you ever have not, because you will have asked not. Never expect without asking. Most importantly, always be grateful—always; and remember: He will never send more suffering and pain than you can physically or mentally handle. Each lesson may get harder and harder, but He will never leave you. We are always a prayer and a whisper, away. But you must call when you’re in trouble. You must ask.

One more thing, darling, dear Catherine, refusing to forgive yourself or another, is poison. It means to kill, and it is often successful. Always forgive yourself, first, so that you might forgive others. Walk with your head held high, with your heart braced with love and compassion for humans and animals. They are both gifts from our Father who art in Heaven.”

Eleanor, using her magical finger, ordered the room back to its tidy condition. She forgot the candles, though, and some other objects, like the pyramid of gold drawn on the floor.

When she thought they were finished, she said, “You know, Lovey, Catherine always thought I was her fairy godmother.” Eleanor chuckled. “She will always be like a child to me.”

“Goodbye, sweet Catherine, goodbye.” Eleanor kissed Cat’s forehead once more, and Lovey cried.

Lovey licked her cheek, and Tadhg blew her a blessing kiss goodbye—off to the golf course.

Eleanor waved her hands—all healed—over Catherine and the room, then over the house and across the property atop the mountain, where she blessed everything with the Father’s acceptance and joy. “Goodbye,” she said.

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Awakened

Elizabeth Catherine Dubois’ eyes opened. She ached with pains all over, and discovered that she lay atop the old Gothic rug in the center of the manor’s dank, freezing library. “Damn it, I hurt like hell,” she moaned. Three smoldering candles formed a triangle around her. They were symbolic, but she did not know why. She had very little recent memory of what had just occurred. “It’s different in here,” Catherine muttered curiously, glancing around her. “Something’s weird. Unusual. My dreams were so vivid—alive.” She was sensitive to the spiritual plane, so her feelings were understandable. “Somebody or something is trying to tell me something,” she concluded, but she was dazed and a little dizzy, and very weary. She lay back down, thinking she would just close her eyes for a moment. In the blink of an eye, she was fast asleep.

Just as soon as Catherine had drifted off, Eleanor came breezing in, having remembered she needed to finish the quick clean up. Otherwise, it would confuse Catherine upon her awakening. With the brawl of the final battle still on her mind, she had simply forgotten to rearrange and replace some minor details in Cats’ home. But, when she arrived and entered the foyer, she was surprised to find Tadhg and Lovey there, too.

“What are you doing here?”, Eleanor asked, sort of abruptly.

“Well, what are you doing here?”, Tadhg responded in a like tone of voice. He was just as shocked to see Eleanor.

Eleanor waited for their reply.

“We had a hard time leaving. We thought we might just watch her awaken from a distance. We would never disturb her, of course.”

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I hope that you have enjoyed part of my novel Cat Dubois Odyssey To Enchantment by BoJenn or Bonnie Jennings. Thank you for reading and sharing. Your comments are also greatly appreciated.

The mish-mosh of twigs, sticks and green brambles

The mish-mosh of twigs, sticks and green brambles

In such disarray and dangling all together just simply rambling

What clutter and for the sake of humans who’ll clean it

And I shuddered, wondering by worrying, showing enamel grit

Watching a biker traveling nearby smiling as he passed

Forget him, he’s passing through, no commitments gasped

Then a man on a horse trotted by greeting with his smile

Oh no worries, from him, as he assumes no response or trial

And gone are they who pass by the mish-moshed pasture

There I stood silently judging the reckless seemingly disaster

Shaking my head in disappointment and utter awed confusion

Yet a little squirrel sat nibbling on the nuts that had fallen

As the bees and butterflies dipped between different pollens

A deer came to inspect the homes of the their future hollow

And a bunny came to nibble on fallen leaves and wild flowers

As a handsome yellow snake slithered over the refuge proudly

And the birds found feed within the fallen twigs, and worm matter

And flying insects dove on my flesh trying to bite me as I swatted

However the leaves of the camomile grew by the Dragon Tree superfluous

Thus rubbing on my arms, shoulders, legs and face, started running

Found escaping erases complaints about needless tidying trumpets

And the worries about the foliage disarray was useless and preposterous

Understanding that life has ways of overturning our pleasant expectations

So enjoy the disappointments as well as glad tidings in the tiniest of moments

Though hard to do ~ achieving is the solution for this irrational problem

Resting in times of great computing within the greenery of wild gardens

So restore the neurons system demanding they shall relax

Take it easy, having no worries about tomorrow ~ so there… just sit on your ass

And don’t worry about frantic speculations and about imaginary chatter

There now … Put away thoughts ~especially those about tomorrow
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BoJenn December 2018

Hunters

The fog of dull moist clouds cloistered Earths hills

rolling slowly quietly assured with December’s presence

uncovering the steal bleakness of chills

the grey fox sought the superlative time stalking

hunting, one catch, the hare eating thorns, is captured

~

All rests except the fox, and the hawk that swoops prey

and beautiful it seems to carolers that dream

pictured on Christmas Cards sleighing coupled in hay

but the hunted sigh as the singers pass by

ignoring the innocent life in the forest by night

really wintery rest is not what it seems

~

The white witch cursed the greens for three months

laughing, she pointed t’wards the fox and the hare

the hawk she invites on her evening animal hunts

while the fox, hiding and embarrassingly shares,

“dear rabbit if only there was another way to convey

my condolences and my fondness, for you, today.”

~

The fawn born in grey thicket that night

a hunter was on track for a meal, of the carnivores type

deep in silence, bitter coldness, that eve less bright

their faces showed meanness, sickeningly alarming

hungry for killing the innocent and without any lament

the damp floors lined with twigs and leaves sent

~

Warning there are trespassers who entered our forest

and without invitation, the hawk soared forewarning

the dove in turn echoes cooing which entered space

of ears of the fox alarming, the furry rabbit crosses into the thicket

noosing the doe and the fawn warmed coddling

“stay within this eve the thicket safe from guns”

~

The hunter’s love winter’s and the innocent blood

And the white witch carries on until spring

stay here little doe while your mother brings the cud

the sleet drizzling rains seem never to bring

peace within the forest it seems

and life circles around the fox and the hare

and the buzzards that hunt the carcass from the air

~

©2015 Bonnie Jennings All Rights Reserved

CPR BLS

Quit sweating the test. Here are the answers. Now learn the cpr without any disruptions of anxiety or stress because of having to take this horrible test. Be free to now learn. Amen!

High Quality CPR (their new name)

Basic life support BLS

Here’s the answers now go learn CPR. Check the * sign as these are the answers or part of the questions.

CPR is cardiac and pulmonary resuscitation

Safety at the site for rescuer and victim. Check around you.

If one adult person

Check safety

Check responses

Breathing respiration’s, pulse (Carotid on adults and Brachial on children or infants *) or choking in less than 10 seconds

Call for HELP. Ems 911

Begin cpr

Compressions 30

Respiration’s 2

(30:2 ratio compressions:respiration’s)*

100-120 compressions per minute *

Five 5 cycles per 2 minutes *

Keep going until someone comes to help.

Infant CPR

Compression to breath ratio

One person 30:2 *

Two people 15:2 *

Know finger or hand positions*

Get an AED if available (Automatic External Defibrillator)

Turn on first. * and second voice prompts *

Check for hair and shave if necessary *

Compressions

On adults compress 2 inches. Or 5 cms *

On Children compress 1/3 inches about 2 inches *

On Infants 1.5 inches and 4 cms *

(use finger tips or if 2 people use both hands grasping around the infant.)

Recoil know the definition. Return of spontaneous circulation *

Rescue breathing adult 1 breath every 5-6 seconds (1:5)

Children rescue breathing 1 breath per 3-5 seconds. This is if they have a pulse but are not breathing.

If gasping know this is not natural*

Know the difference between normal sinus rhythm (nsr) and a-systole not normal heart rhythm *

Can you shock someone with water on them? Yes, after moving them and patting them dry *

Two people CPR

30:2 adults

Change from compressor to breather within 5 seconds

AED First power on*

Follow the voice prompts *

Team CPR

Know roles and responsibilities *

Know limitations *

Choking

Adult

30 compressions/check for dislodged item in mouth/ 2 breaths/ keep going until it’s out or they collapse. * Begin CPR

Choking Infants

Use gravity

5 upward compressions to upper back: Turn over: 5 compressions to chest High Quality CPR (their new name)

Start Basic life support BLS if respiration’s have ceased and the brachial has no pulse.

CPR is cardiac and pulmonary resuscitation

Safety at the site for rescuer and victim. Check for safety.

If one adult person

Check safety

Check responses

Breathing respiration’s, pulse (Carotid on adults and Brachial on children or infants *) or choking in less than 10 seconds

Call for HELP. Ems 911

Begin cpr

Compressions 30

Respiration’s 2

(30:2 ratio compressions:respiration’s)*

100-120 compressions per minute *

Five 5 cycles per 2 minutes *

Keep going until someone comes to help.

Infant CPR

Compression to breath ratio

One person 30:2 *

Two people 15:2 *

Know finger or hand positions*

Get an AED if available (Automatic External Defibrillator)

Turn on first. * and second voice prompts *

Check for hair and shave if necessary *

Compressions

On adults compress 2 inches. Or 5 cms *

On Children compress 1/3 inches about 2 inches *

On Infants 1.5 inches and 4 cms *

(use finger tips or if 2 people use both hands grasping around the infant.)

Recoil know the definition. Return of spontaneous circulation *

Rescue breathing adult 1 breath every 5-6 seconds (1:5)

Children rescue breathing 1 breath per 3-5 seconds. This is if they have a pulse but are not breathing.

If gasping know this is not natural*

Know the difference between normal sinus rhythm (nsr) and a-systole not normal heart rhythm *

Can you shock someone with water on them? Yes, after moving them and patting them dry *

Two people CPR

30:2 adults

Change from compressor to breather within 5 seconds *

AED First power on*

Follow the voice prompts *

Team CPR

Know roles and responsibilities *

Know limitations *

Adult Choking

30 compressions/check for dislodged item in mouth/ 2 breaths/ keep going until it’s out or they collapse. * Begin CPR

Choking Infants

Use gravity

5 upward compressions to upper back: Turn over: 5 compressions to chest * very important to know

Clear infant mouth with little finger when you see the lodged piece

I hope this post will help you to not worry about passing the test, and I hope, like me, you will now be able to learn CPR.

Grand Poets, one of today, Phillip Mathew Roberts

A Poet

Hello Phillip!

It is my pleasure to greet you once again here on my blog. Thank you for agreeing to share your self with me and others!

Phillip and I met on FB as fellow poets. When Phillip writes he absolutely sets the poetry bar higher and one becomes deeply connected through emotionally charged thoughts within his poetic words. There are times, Phillip, I have to switch my energies in order to read your words, to get onto your stratus, and to understand and know what (I think 🤔) you’re thinking or saying. You always say, “wonderful…” etc, etc, etc… Phillip is always pleasant and polite and never has a negative comment for anyone that I know of.

Phillip has given me permission to post his bio and three poems.

So here goes… let’s go down and onto Phillips road and into his heart.

Phillip:

What did I get in life?

My curriculum vitae–the early years–includes being adopted at 2 months old and an ample helping of sexual abuse by the time I was 6 years of age followed by swiftly being informed I wasn’t my parent’s biological child at the ripe age of seven. I could divulge further but at the risk of audience boredom. Mostly I think writing kept me from becoming a full blown criminal who invariably would’ve been imprisoned if I hadn’t discovered my lust for language.

How I first began writing?

I’ve a fetishist’s bent that announced itself early in my life. Around 8 years old I became intrigued by a beer stein on my father’s work-desk stuffed with all kinds of pens. One in particular made from a faux bronze metal especially fascinated me and so I proceeded to steal it and eventually use it. Feeling its heft in my hand compelled me I suppose to do my best to write something important and meaningful. Not sure if I’ve accomplished this goal yet but I keep trying with the same fervor as I did then which makes for roughly 37 years worth of enjoyable effort.

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Apology for a degree in the 

fine arts and belles-lettres: 

Silence 

my mother 

split by an opened mouth: 

words, phrases–a kiss 

sharing the commonality 

of tongues sheathed 

or brandished. 

Propagations whose demise 

comes softly, patient antithesis, 

a minotaur embedded in eventualities. 

Voice of flesh still warm to be 

buried beneath recitals 

of a sabbath night. 

Leave my first floor windows ajar 

near the poor-district thoroughfares. 

Footstep-measures of daily commerce. 

Sounds (zounds!) from distant train horns 

steadily through the rustic-dark elsewhere. 

Vigilant yet nearly four decades hence 

I await one undisclosed who taught rape 

disguised by games wearing pliant innocence 

denied with an adult’s diplomatic irreverence. 

Criminal hopes his thievery will again arrive

a captive this time to my incisive harangue 

on murder emboldened with works cited 

and thesis trenchant as a blood-slick knife. 

PMR

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What drives me?

A drug-like addiction to beauty no matter the medium or genre. When I sense this quality or aspect, feel it in some way coursing through my nervous system, it’s similar to being drawn toward a gorgeous woman but easier because I don’t have to woo a painting or piece of music. In fact, I don’t even have to be clever or interesting and I’m allowed to openly ogle without societal standards booing me for being so demonstrative in my displays of bad behavior.

Unexpurgated etymology of Logos: 

Everyone bears a residual taste 

disgorged out of the first scream. 

Womb-blossoms, saline wounds 

spilled from kisses 

forged in feminine depths

where fires weep and hiss. 

Prayers and impious poems met

like plump lips… mandalas cradled 

between serpentine thighs. 

The subconscious ripened by unplucked urges 

and their near-impossible sublimations. 

Sweat upon globed fruit

feigning dew… 

Mendicants pricked upon thunderous soles. 

Jagged stones cast against a nervous 

system awakened along the glans, 

ablaze-warmed maternal areolas 

lighting one’s way toward 

suckled-dawn 

succor.  

Words preferably encountered with a calm 

eased across limpid waters rippled 

by a single breath. 

Awaiting the response that requires a lifetime. 

PMR

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The other notable thing to mention is I tend to get naturally high when I write. Something about the process opens certain neural pathways that light up my synapses when I scribble and spill ink across the pages.

Six unfinished fragments in search of a poet: 

“Life is full of strange absurdities, which, strangely enough, 

do not even need to appear plausible, since they are true.” 

–Luigi Pirandello 

1.  Wield a blade that winnows 

vanity from inspiration. 

(Bookish youth spent unsupervised 

in the bloodshed depths of the bible 

revealing choice temptations.) 

2. Certain abuses teach 

about inhuman endurance. 

Trauma so severe it forges

thought and flesh 

into one 

quintessence. 

3. A voice tempered by the sun 

speaks brilliance… 

4. Severed egos die 

more quietly than hushed orgasms 

opened beneath the ribald night. 

5. Only so many different diagnosis 

within the cacophonous walls once 

referred to as an asylum… 

So many more strolling freely 

beyond these barred windows 

starless and gap-jawed. 

6. Crystalline body of water outstretched 

undisturbed under downy billows 

mirrored at the midpoint horizon. 

Narcissus dreams before he drowns. 

PMR

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What did I get in life? 

my answer to Phillip: the ability to write like non other. You sir are gifted.

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Phillips last poem and I added late after reading it on his FB site. So, I asked permission to use it as well. Smiles… my favorite Phillip.

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Key themes for a grant in the arts:

Modernity went another direction

my steadfast idleness.

“Path” and other synonyms

for way or route lack denotations

where self never arrives

post-schism.

Alters, personae crowding persona

disguise themselves as burlesque aliases–

they’re rapt quixotic

by a circumcised sun

hung larger than Milton’s

“ponderous shield” trapped

easily in a tramp-sized

parallax compact.

Center stage

(casual motions indicative

of someone who does this routinely):

cheeks brushed sluttishly red to honor

the drag queen, Hester Prynne.

(A for autoerotic gallows–tiny ruses

become necessarily un-tucked upon

the hangman’s scaffold, the deadman’s

last authentic signature…)

Ruins that follow Zeitgeist foreplay.

The bearded gurus

slum street bulletin boards

plagiarized self-help shelves

and nudie mag 900 numbers:

all different circumferences

with the same redundant ratio,

the sangfroid vicious

cycles repeated like cliches,

history and fruitful propagation.

Vivisect the shy reflection.

Autopsy ego

fondled by a listeless id.

Etiquette of the postmortem cigarette

cited from Tropes to Tropism

of the Dawn-Embraced

Male Groin.

“Even night doesn’t want you”

the proposed vanity-press expose

that tentatively, will uncover joyous

impotence in this proposed memoir.

PMR

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Oh Phillip ~ thank you for your gift of writing poetry. We understand the horrible childhood you had and am so sorry for your tragic youthful experiences. There are no words to express the sadness that you endured. It makes us realize that right now there are other children going through similar situations. May God stop all the horrible losses.

Thank you for your gifts.

It’s a pleasure to have had you once again on my WordPress blog.

Thank you so much.

Hugs to you!

BoJenn

Experiences in Reincarnation

There within your lips notably tangled

An undelivered message about your mangled

Thoughts about right and wrongdoings

How you are left behind and so taken advantage

Breathe in and rest your eyes on the heavens

Understand that life has unending lessons

Perhaps we agreed to fulfill the duties

Pressure and persuasive anglings

Until the last class in Pieces with Pieces rising

We are meandering our paths and often hurting

The wounds slashed open again and again

Laying down the whips as my heart is driven

Down to the earth below the tears

Wishing it would end and quite nothingness to discern

But nonetheless after nightfall shall be Monday

Then Tuesday, Wednesday, so forth to Saturday

Again and again each week of life

Then another day in several lifetimes forward

Perhaps lovers then or circus clown fools

Running about telling everyone’s story

Reading palms, stealing bread, running a business

Who knows what we’ll choose to linger the cruel

Sadly it is love of one more than the other

And one giggles after the birth of the other

Jumping into many births chasing the other

Never crying at death for it’s just a game

Never ending tragedy for everything is the same

Let it rest, I tell you! Let us go!

And one day in heaven we’ll greet and whoa

Because resting from battling, warring fights

Brings clearer perspectives into our sites

Let the Middle East go to bed, so that their eyes will smile.

And peace and safety will jive in their prides, and rest in the kingdoms by giving up the rights.

Sleep well little children and kiss each other goodnight.

Call it quits.

The end.

BoJenn 2018

All Rights Are Reserved

Human Euthanasia

You ask what is on my mind and I need to say some things that are difficult.

Should I go on beyond our image of a healthy life may I request that you plainly not keep me alive

In a cage of sicknesses sadness and poops

Just simply let me go into the wonderfulness of my dreams

Hold me not in a wheelchair bound in diapers and sweat and turn me over at noon or at half past twelve

Now let me go so that my arms shall take me to flight

See me smiling as I zip past Jupiter and Mars

And do not bury me under soil in a locked casket

No do not but let my ashes fly away from a mountain top

Where peace from wild animals is within my heart and the breezes blow dramatically upon your face

That is where I want to be

Not in a wheelchair or a nursing home waiting to die

Let me go within the love of god where heaven flows

Kiss my cheek

Smile

Perhaps one day you’ll know then also go

to the place of freedom upon this earth

Where death meets life again and again

Until the next encounter I might see you soon

BoJenn

De-Culting

When do we become totally enlightened with the understanding of what the supreme being is?

Never.

Angers gripped me lately as again I was sent an email with a conversation on it about me from two people. The gossip judged me unfairly and was also humorous at the same time. It gave me more power than I have or am aware of. I suppose that I will investigate my supernatural gifts more closely.

So let me explain if you have time. A brief history of myself goes like this. I was not raised in a Christian home until much later when I started attending an episcopal church. My mother and father joined me. I was 9 ish.

In my early twenties I became a Christian and by late twenties I was a born again, tongue talking, legalistic, finger pointing, gossiping and used overly sweet expressions like the ones I hear now. This was 1977. I could send a person to hell because I knew GOD so well. Hell we, at the churches, even cast other Christians out of the Church for not thinking like us, and this was in Miami, Fl.

In the year 1998, my mother and sister started de-culting me. I was soooo brainwashed. The de-culting has taken twenty years and my karma accompanied me during the years.

It played out that all the people I condemned for being a sinner or declared their going to hell for not believing was vehemently returned. Now, I hear the accusations of the church and their yells seem like screams, and all the while, I must remember the truth about how I acted.

No, I wasn’t religious. I believed and still do, but in another way. I am not higher, or better than others. I am simply on my own path and god is with me as it is with you.

Thank you for allowing me to share this with you.

Beliefs, Verbiage We Use, Freedom, Open Your Door

Perspectives about how life works and occurs for humans and animals and living cells are different for all humans. Every person has a different concept of their belief system unless that dogma as been hammered into a soul over time, and presently governs that person. For example phrases in conversation like “Praise the Lord!” Or “Bless you,” and “I’ll pray for you,” are judged by the circle of the congregation of “Believers.” Also, the New Age Yoga word, “Namaste,” follows another type of believer who feels their need to express their beliefs and so that word, too, becomes a word meant for dogmatic control and protection from an offensive adversity.

The point I am making is this: We become so easily swayed/manipulated because we desire and want rulership and/or governorship by a “King,” or a dogmatic belief that says we are accepted, loved and fit into the large scope of the kingdom of people.

Is it possible to think outside these rules that govern the above and ask questions? Is it possible that we are driven to the place of DOGMA for a reason?

Is it possible, now ask yourself “possible” that we are controlled by ideas, rules, thoughts, sayings, words, phrases, magnetic energies of one, that govern us in such away. It is from somewhere else our designated and herded lives and circumstances assigns to our lives rewards with wealth or poverty. We accept this as truth and do not cross over the lines drawn in the invisible sands in less we are atheist and believe that only we ourselves control the universe or our surroundings.

We are afraid to ask this force or question the intentions of familiarity to a religion or political group or any ideology because of the fear of going to hell or dying a horrific death or being cast out of a society.

I write this above because my story of events are based on the above dogmatic beliefs, fears and control. I want you to know that I serve a loving God who is supportive of me personally and is happy when I go beyond the lines drawn in invisible vague old rotten shells and sands.

My next story will be about my childhood experiences with my father, a mechanical engineer, who designed missiles, rockets, ammunition, and had encounters of the third and fourth kind in the late 1950’s, 60, and 70’s. From his experiences came mine. Perhaps this is the reason I am able to photograph odd flying images. Or UFOs 🛸

Courageous Captain

My destiny sits before me

And I am a fearful captain

The skies call loudly “this way!”

I hide in the room provided

The ships keep coming back

They are insisting on government

“Here. This is yours, captain.

Take charge before it’s too late.”

Courage is needed

I call upon the name, Courageous

“Come, now! I am ready! To take

My flight.”

BoJenn 7.8.2018

From My Backyard to You… East Tx

Time: 8 pm or a little later… not much.. I can look at the time on my camera, but right now, I am just chilling.

From my backyard in the northwest and southwest sky came an interesting display of clouds and here they are. July 7, 2018

Faint pink cloud caught my attention so I got my cell phone camera So, I took several pictures southwest sky at the same time as the pink ufo cloud. I wondered if it was traveling to the huge clouds in the southwest. Was that the mother ship or do I have an overly inquisitive mind. This very brilliant star post the exit of the pink ufo cloud

What remained in the sky post the pink ufo cloud that was in the northwest

The sky is amazing isn’t it?

From my backyard to you.

I hope you have enjoyed as much as I have.

Godspeed

🛸

My destiny sits before me

And I am a fearful captain

The skies call loudly “this way!”

I hide in the room provided

The ships keep coming back

They are insisting on government

“Here. This is yours, captain.

Take charge before it’s too late.”

Courage is needed

I call upon the name, Courageous

“Come, now! I am ready! To take

My flight.”

BoJenn July 8, 2018

The Advisory

I walked into the field of games

The sky was clear accept for

the horizon

No one saw the darkness

No sword ⚔️ could win

Simple might of speech

Pressing verbiage was on target

Consistent positive words

Shifting the attitude into seat

Managing the masses of cells

With mind manipulation

Thanksgiving and quiet utter

Ask the warrior, how are you?

The engaged won’t reply

Look in the eyes of the attacker’s

Peace and reverence is for now

Watch the pool of ranting Dna

It raises a strong fist to finish

And yet it battles in confusion

It doesn’t have a plan

It shakes and rattles its world

One cell at a time it divides

It seems that it is winning… pause

Regaining the strength of the mind

Slowly getting into the proper position

Good strong posturing for the war

Take hold of what your silence taught you

Be ready to act once again

Now speak of words of healing

Keep uttering until you know clearly

Know that you are stronger than the confusion

And it’s grip begins to let go