Robert Ray, I had you in mind when I wrote this. Something we talked about. Hope you enjoy this.
Once upon a Time
A garden of many species of living things were flourishing. There was mostly peace, yet suffering from about, was observed. A blueish vibrant covering from an atmosphere suspended. Waves of oxygen and waters painted the canvas of imagination. Birth, life, and death marked these dim timelines. More than one line of living highlighted, the long origins, of the gardens. ‘Twas a gift given, testing the living, to honestly see. Intelligence, bigotry, wars, crimes and loves would adorn souls. Proudly standing erect, gloating wealth, their truths unfolded. Killing the innocent, when craving hungers, was devilishly bold. Guides, watched from afar, not wanting to step onto the garden’s workers. Are we useful and good and honestly worthy to have gold… hmm? Do we present ourselves, as gods everyday… dare we enquire? What is man to god, and god to man, am asking, truly, humbly afraid. Standing, beside our works and thoughts, our plans and the goals. Wonder, would this be enough, to show them, all of our love? I mean, the animals who love us, despite our wants of eyelashes long? The meat on our plates, without saying thank you … is what a shame. Children starving, wearing dirty diapers, just … somewhere else. Men saying vulgarities, of women’s private parts, in vein manners. Women marrying without love, for the sake, of her shopping. Children playing with guns, knives and bayonets, are frightening. And hunger and thirst, without bread, on a barren wobbling table. And the sky above the garden still looks apparently, lovely. To one who is safe and rightfully pleasant, in the weeds, of the garden. And the hare nibbles the carrots 🥕 on sunny days, while watching others. Nothing is safe under the stars ✨ of the living lab 🔬 within the estate. Watch your back, you have no friends, when the government plunges. Yet they scout, from up above, seeing any innocents. Waiting, for the day, wiping their arms, over the sand pile. Starting new, starting fresh with AI, instead of the breathing. And the fetology fertilization was thrown, into the fires 🔥. The humans created, for them, artificial intelligence. Despite the knowledge, that all was lost, under the bluish covering. And all was well, once again, in the timeline, of earths living. And the blue bird 🐦 still sings, well into the mornings. The AI only cares because, it was told to do so. And the monkeys were freed, from all the circuses. The lions 🦁 and tigers ran untamed again, in the jungles. The whales 🐋 swam unworried, about perfumed blubber.
The human invention was laid to rest, outside the garden.
And peace was sung, in the gardens, of earths loving blessings.
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Today I am posting a fascinating acquaintance that I met on FB, Katie Louise. Her story and her observance over the years about those who have had out of body experiences after dying is intriguing. It was because of my recent death in February 2019 that I found Katie on a FB group called ‘Near Death Experiences’. Katie will explain her involvements, her observations of others having these experiences throughout the years, and how she has wrapped it up together to form her own opinions about deaths or near deaths known as NDEs. Keep in mind the terminology of NDE is in the changing stages as it’s not quite correct.
Thank you for agreeing to write for my blog Katie and welcome!
Katie Louise begins:
One evening, alone late at night and contemplating the spiritual consequences of ending my life, I searched the internet for what happens when we die. In particular, if a person died from suicide.
It was a difficult time. A relationship that I hoped would last instead had fallen apart. Interweaved with everything else, I had struggled since childhood with a health condition I was born with. Over time, I felt more and more isolated on all levels. There seemed to be no way out. Externally, I was managing the superficial aspects of my life. Internally, I felt anxious, like I was missing something. Underlying it all, I felt fundamentally off track.
On my own, I had studied various philosophies, religions, psychology, and creative arts. I looked at astrology, and saw the uncanny way that patterns in my life and personality correlated to planets, stars, and mythical archetypes. Although I found inspiration and intriguing ideas in many directions, I found limitations too, and further questions.
Since then, I’ve seen the connection between the questions we have when we struggle, and the answers that eventually come.
It was then that I first read about NDEs, starting with Howard Storm and George Ritchie. A simple Google search on NDERF and YouTube showed hundreds of experience accounts. This was not something that happened to a rare few. The voices of the experiencers, and their words, were genuine and profound. I read them night after night.
A switch clicked in my mind. I felt like I was peeking into a vast field of knowledge about the seen and unseen. Reading about NDEs seemed to reconnect me to what I intuitively knew, but had lost through years of immersion in this world. I asked myself, why aren’t more people aware of these experiences? While various belief systems tend to box things in and solidify them, these experiences expand. The exact details of the experiences didn’t matter as much as the spiritual qualities that seemed to underlay everything. Some experiencers were introduced to a vast field of knowledge. There is a pure flow of information in many NDEs – beautiful, direct, complete, and filled with joy, wisdom, creativity, expansion, and Love beyond our comprehension. In spite of the limitation of words, you often can feel the emotion and the intelligence behind what is said.
I discovered that these experiences are equally about “what’s out there” as “what’s in here,” in me, and in all of us. It’s poignant that nothing and no one is excluded; on a spiritual level, each and every one of us is completely known, and Loved. There was a shift in my emotional state upon learning this information. My thought patterns started to change. I started re-evaluating pretty much everything about myself, including very basic assumptions about who and what I was and what life was all about. I revisited the inner knowings I had from a very early age but had since dismissed, including this sense of being comically misaligned with my surroundings.
In my heart and mind, I started to have mini “life reviews” that left me reeling. I realized some mistakes I made, not only on an intellectual level, but on the soul level. It was painful. A lot of the “stuff” I was holding onto (physical, mental, whatever) didn’t mean what it used to mean or became completely irrelevant, a relic of the “old me”. I forgave grievances from the past and worked on forgiving myself as well. It was both awe-inspiring and humbling to realize the vastness and interconnectedness behind these physical appearances. Each and every one of us is a tiny piece of the whole yet our existence here has a tremendous importance of its own. No matter what our physical appearances, our soul is engaged in something beautiful.
I developed much more acceptance of life “as it was” after studying NDEs. I grew more mindful in my personal interactions with family and friends and felt more empathy and understanding for what they were going through. The feeling of “missing something” faded. I felt connected again. Inwardly, I was much more at peace.
This isn’t to say I made a 180 degree turn around and things were suddenly great. While there were great leaps forward in my understanding, there were more losses and challenges ahead. I didn’t even think much about NDEs for several years until a new phase of my life brought me back to them.
My beliefs were fairly open prior to exploring NDEs but NDEs inspired me to push further into spiritual work. I had experiences during meditation and an unexpected out of body experience. This OBE validated that we exist on in a thought based reality on an especially dense plane. There are many layers and infinite overlays beyond what we typically see. The so-called “other side” is just beyond our sight. It’s really all just a blink away. Our thoughts and focus are more important than we realize. This is not just at the individual level, but the collective level.
I’ve learned from NDEs that we never stop growing and our journeys are infinite. Our souls are never static. NDEs are frequently in surprising contrast to an individual’s prior assumptions or beliefs.
The human mind wants explanations, something firm to hold onto, a framework to feel secure. NDEs show us that we don’t even have the vocabulary to communicate the ineffable complexity of what is. But the core of it, pervading it and at its essence, is simply: Love.
We are explorers. Any answers we seem to have are just answers for the moment. Likewise, the person you were yesterday is no longer the person you are today. There is potential for anything, really. Each new flow of energy, whether from an event or astrological alignment or from your conscious or unconscious choice, may find you in a totally different space.
–Katie Connolly. No website, but I can be reached by email at katiecpa11 at gmail dot com.
Thank you Katie for sharing your own story of how you became interested in NDEs and what you learned from reading their stories. It seems like you read for quite a while of others accounts and found them to be many and encouraging. You opened yourself up to the world and became vulnerable and this is bravery and freedom that works hand in hand. Perhaps someone will read this and identify with you. Maybe they will be able to move away from the ideas of self harm and or suicide. What you wrote is a gift to others and I hope that your words will find the way into the hands of the person or persons feeling like they want to end their lives.
You can find Katie on FB at Near Death Experiences and other FB pages related to Near Deaths, as well. Katie has dedicated her life to discovery of near deaths and to the study of it. I think she will write a fascinating book one day. Do you agree?
Okay,. well thank you all for reading this blog of mine today and I hope that you will seek Katie out on FB if you need to. Always remember … if suicidal, please go immediately to the emergency room. Thanks so much! Have a spiritually full and awakened day.
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The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: Thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: And I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Using Astrology to see our road map of where we were and where our past influences have perhaps been situational and maybe shaped us. The astrological road map is similar to an old friend that sorts out our past in a physical manor. Bearing in mind, that Astrology, should never be used to soothsay or to cause someone to take a path that isn’t well thought out with the help of God Almighty. This road map is the same one The Magi used to find The Christ Child. It is merely a map of the heavens and their vibrational forces upon us. We are the master’s of our roads and with God’s help we will get to where we are suppose to be. The map of the sky is just like a God’s divine treasure map. Furthermore, some people can read and understand them while others are intimidated, frightened or bewildered.
I give God and my Lord Jesus Christ all the thanks for the insight that He has shown me by way and illumination of the stars…
Yes, I am a Christian, if you are wondering.
This is my study of the forensics of disease. This first case is dealing with anxiety disorders and where to look in a chart for planetary influences effecting the nervous system.
Case study: #1
Anxiety Disorders show up in childhood sometimes through being mute. Traumatic events can cause muteness and sometimes not. The use of astrology will be used to examine the phobias provided the birth date and time are correct. Assuming that the entrance of an infant into our world is absolutely correct this is how it could be interpreted.
The “little girl” was deathly afraid to talk. She couldn’t utter sentences but managed to speak simple words. She thought she was retarded when young and a battery of IQ tests were given which scored her as average. Plain old average, that was her worst fear.
She came to see me hoping that I would be able to calculate her wounds by using the constellations and the placement of the houses during her time of birth. If we could figure out the gravity and planetary vibrations on her psyche, then we could understand the origin of her phobias. Do the stars have anything to do with the anxieties she experiences? The phobias and horrific fears that she faces in life or her challenges, are they chemical and involve neurotransmitters or are they traumatic events that trigger the neurotransmitters and cortisol stress response with the flight, flight and fire?
The astrological information is withheld to protect the person’s identity. However a description of any malefic planets and houses will be examined to see if there was a predestined fate, will be posted.
The first indication that was noted is 22º Uranus 46′ in Cancer in the 4th house in the natal chart. Although it is not a strong indicator of a specific one wound, the planet in Cancer in the 4th house suggests early childhood dysfunction per se’ that may be many uproars in a home, not just one. Possibly and imbalance of the status quo that makes it difficult for any infant or child to find the necessary coping skills for life. Perhaps, constant arguing, rejections, or neglecting of the child became the wound and probably a huge wound gaping with toxic feelings and horrendous emotions.
Next, The Moon in 3º Cancer 58′ in the 7th house suggests a super sensitivity or psychic awareness. These perceptions can be real or imagined, as if, they were absolutely real however, the awareness is not the same as, the hallucinations or delusions assessed in psychosis or in schizophrenia. Furthermore, The Moon represents our emotional self. It is where our hearts reside and feels life. The Moon in Cancer, in it’s own place or home, in this case, tells us there are emotions as deep as one can go. Perhaps, they are the emotions of an artist or an extremely creative person. More than likely she would be musically inclined. Since, the 7th house is the natural home of Libra, the scales of justice and beauty then Cancer (family) sitting in the 7th house would represent esthetics, beauty and justice. Saying this we would understand that if Cancer were to judge, then Cancer would judge the guilty, as a mother would. Cancer would be somewhat fair. It would be emotional and possibly lenient due to it being a mother, who in this case would be, in charge of the laws. Thus meaning, who the mother Cancer is defending would determine the weight of the scales in the house of Libra that the scales would so incline. If it were a child of her own, then she, would seek the child’s safety, and if, the crime was committed against her child, the accused would not fair well, in the 7th house of judgement. It is at that time Cancer looses the balanced judgements when using psychic awareness and will become slanted in their perceptions because of strong deep maternal emotions. Even if this is a male energy, it would experience this imbalance, and have difficulty remaining fair and balanced.
The next 3 planets are in the 10th house and greatly effect each other. They conjunct each other, and they could act like siblings at times. Sometimes good and sometimes fighting as kids do. This closeness is called a conjunction.
The first next malefic would be Saturn in 17º Libra 45′ in the 10th house. It must be said here that Saturn has a job to do and it is the disciplinarian of the planets and it will clean house if necessary and is not merciful. Now, that you know that Saturn alone can be trouble, this must be said about it in conjunction with 2 other planets (actually 4, but for this article we are only concerned with 3) so having said all that, when the home or family life is continually dysfunctional and when there is heightened sensitivity to the unseen world (psychic tendencies) there is a possibility of an unbalanced psyche or psychic state that picks up negatives more than positives due to the lack of positive experiences. The lack of positive experiences was measured in early childhood developement in this case. There must be a balance to know or understand both negative and positive sensitivities.
Now moving onto the next malefic planetary possibility and that is Neptune. It is 21ºLibra 15′ in the 10th house. This creates a magical, whimsical naive person who suffers from idealism. And, again, in early childhood having difficulty with trusting parental figures. It is because of their own committed approach to raising the young girl. Their motivations were seen as incongruent to what they verbalized. In other words they may say I love you, but the body language, the tone, and the heart, depicted another intent. The child can not trust the parental figure and Neptune in Libra in the 10th house would suggest more instability.
On a good note, Mercury 26º Libra 6′ gives a counter combat to the 3 other malefic planets in the same house, number 10. Mercury in this placement seems to take up from the child. It gives her a positive ray of sunshine approach to life. She sees well the entire situation more so when she matures, probably later in life. With Mercury in this place she will seek the higher road and will choose to forgive the past if the past will forgive itself and allow her to move onward. Also, the other possibility is the adult woman learned how to detach emotionally at an early age. This would have made the way for a disassociation disorder. A splitting of personalities to cope would be a possibility with Mercury opening a door of escapism.
At this time I must say: There are haunting memories that at times want to be heard or justified and perhaps will awaken a soul in the middle of the night. The ghosts (memories) want others to forgive and bless them. Perhaps this is where hell is. That is where a soul can’t find rest and must be forgiven. This adds to the fears and phobias this muted child experienced. The psychic world is prevalent in this child and now in the adult.
Next is 7º Chiron 11′ in Capricorn in the 1st house which is also a strong indicator of early childhood dysfunction. Chiron is The Healer or is here to heal the individual. Because it is in the first house usually occupied by Aries, this is about self and healing of the self. Chiron entered this world at this placement to assist the young soul into eternal healing.
To finalize the astrological assessment of predominance of anxieties, fears and phobias must say, the stars did indicate this person would strongly have anxiety disorder, which includes most of the spectrum. Generalized, Panic, agoraphobia, PTSD, social phobias, and mutism are indicated by the reading of this chart.
Again, the age old question is presented “Which comes first, the chicken or the egg?” Was it predestined, fated, or is it a coincidence and it is just the neurotransmitters gone haywire? Hmm…
I say the answer is found in the stars or in both.
Case #2 To be continued
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