Quarks and Atoms

 

Similar to a galaxy spinning in time
Measures and degrees relations to physics
Worlds and molecules and atoms be
Thicker, heavier, denser or sparse
Spinning in their community on a coarse
United by their gravity and specific force
Ignoring mankind as it flows in unison
Though truly mankind rarely notices
Tiny quarks and black space not hidden
Just so small, but significantly living
Wildly busy and holding prayers
The littlest places, but no one cares
But in the tunnels black between quarks
The energy moves vibrating this heaven
The space between iron and chemical seven
Make a place that causen weights to levin
Billions and trillions of atoms maybe
Your eyes, so that you can see
A world of beauty beyond this place
A world of atoms of molecules and me

©2016 Bonnie Jennings All Rights Reserved

Doodles by me

The Abductee Informant

 

 

Your Watchman

 

Sunday afternoon:

The opening scene takes place in a grocery store parking lot in August where there are numerous vehicles parked and many people shopping. It wasn’t a chance meeting though it was meant to be brief and appear accidental. The setting is in a small city in The Bible Belt. It was an extroidinarily hot afternoon and there were no clouds in the sky. Three people greeted each other. Two knew each other previously, the young doctor and the informant, and the third person, his wife, was being introduced, even though, she was not invited, the doctor brought her. The doctor’s young children were with other family members as it had been planned, but not his wife.

The story dialogue begins with the young wife asking the female informant,

“Who are you and who are they? You have told my husband so much bullshit?”

The informant, double agent for whomever replied, “I don’t know, but can tell you sincerely, they are not lovely, nor are they kind.” She looked down in somber explanation and then looked up into the eyes of a questioning young wife.

The double agent stared at her. She said, “I didn’t seek your husband  out; they did.” She further added, “Guard your children. Never let them out of your site.” She looked away into a distant stare. She remembered her own children’s disappearances twenty-two years ago, even though, they returned changed somewhat. She would never forget the horrors and memories that would never go away. Her children told of her about men who did terrible things. Such horrific details she could not bare to listen to them. Each child taken at different times and by different people. She reflected for a moment about her own childhood and those men cloaked in black hoods and were taller than anyone she had ever seen. Their faces had been hidden from her, but she didn’t want to see. She hid under the covers on many cold nights.

The doctor’s wife said frantically, “Who the hell are you? What do you want?”

The female agent hesitated before she responded as she thought. It wasn’t that she was withholding information from the insisting young wife. No, but she was truly unsure of who she was or is to “them,” or anyone. “I am not sure of who I am, or why, or how I came into their services not by choice.”

“That makes no sense! What do you mean, you don’t know? Surely you know something? You’re lying.” The young wife was trembling as she was angry, frightened, and determined to understand the craziness of what she had just heard. “And, what do you mean when you say, guard my children? Are you threatening our family?”

The atmosphere was somber. The electricity of the moments before fell when the informant raised her hands and gently moved them slowly up and down from over head to lower than her hips settling and calming the air. The young wife at first thought the informant was aggressively posturing, but a few seconds later realized the movement was certainly not generated to cause any physical harm.

The female informant said, “I’m not here to harm you. I don’t have any hardcore answers. I’ve searched for those answers all my life. I can only tell you the little that I know. But, we must find a safe place. A place underground and protected. We’re being tracked. They must not see that we connected. And, I hope it’s not too late.”

The young doctor of medicine spoke up. He had been silent because he was as confused as his wife. “Where do you suggest that we meet?”

The informant said, “Go to your office Monday and work just like any other day.” Then, to the young wife she advised the same. “I will arrange the place and the connection.” She told the doctor, “I will call for an appointment and will tell you then the particulars, but know your office is not safe. They will track and listen to  us. You can not write a note to me there in my presence or speak of this. Understand? You will not call me and I won’t call you unless it’s for an appointment.”

He nodded yes.

The informant said, “We must break this meeting up, now.”

“He said, “Will this be soon?”

“Not sure. It could be awhile. We have to leave some gaps in time. They’re tracking us even now,” she responded quietly.

The young doctor’s wife said, “This is crazy.”

The informant nodded in agreement. “I’m going now.” She gets in her old white 2005 Honda Accord and starts the engine. She opens the car window on her way out and says loudly to the young doctor’s wife, as to be heard, “It was so nice to meet you.” She drove out of the parking lot.

 

Chapter 2

Monday

The female informant takes the little amount of cash from her piggy bank, she takes the money and speeds of to The closes discount store. At the back of the store she purchases three cell phones. One for the doctors wife, one for the doctor and one for herself and places them in bubble wrap in a large envelope. She puts only the doctors name on it and tightly licks the glue on the envelope and presses it tightly. She also included the instruction for the cell use to each other only. Use it as little a possible. All regular medical calls were to be by appointment and by going through the secretary, just like normal. She left the store and drove to pick up her grandson who is getting out of summer day camp. The boy is ten.

“Grandma, where are we going?” This wasn’t their usual way to go home and he had friends to play with so he was in a hurry. “Why are we going this way?”

“No worries. We have to drop off papers at the doctors office.” She pulled up in front of the front door drive. She handed the boy the envelope and said, “Tell the receptionist this is for him and open as soon as he can” So, the boy did just what he was told.

“Now can we go?” He was whiny and put out that he was delayed as he got into the car.

“What did the receptions say? Did you her that the doctor was waiting for her records and they were important?” The female informant asked her grandchild.

“They were nice and said, “Who sent it? And, I told them, you did and you said it was important.” The kid was sighing as he had things to do. “Can we go now?”

She, the female informant smiled at the boy and drove away wondering how soon the phones would be delivered and will he open the package then, and would the secretary loudly announce who brought them? She ruminated about this. Should she call him to be certain he got the?

The receptionist hand delivered the packages to the doctor when he was sitting in his office. He said, “What’s this?”

The receptionist said, “Oh Mrs. Smith, you know the kind of crazy one, said you were expecting these.” She smiled as she stood in the door waiting and watching him open the notes as she was told by the boy. “I sure hope her grandchild won’t be that looney.”

The doctor stopped opening the package and said, “That’s okay. I’ll open the latter. We have work to do.” He arose and put the envelope on his chair and scooted it under the desk. He shut the door behind him as it automatically locked. He then took the envelope and carefully opened it and looked at the two phones. Man, she’s serious about this craziness. He put them in his briefcase and the note in his shirt pocket.

 

 

Chapter 3

Monday Evening:

Later he made his first call to the informant. He was alone in his car and he soon pulled over on the side of a dark road hidden under trees where it was safe. He called the informant.

“I thought you said this would happen later? What’s going on?” The doctor’s voice was hostile, angry, but on the other hand ~ He called her.

“Glad you called so quickly. We have work to do.” The informant was short and to the point. She walked outside away from her home just in case her voice was transmittable from inside her home. She took a leisure walk as far as she could and stopped.

“What do I have to do with your delusions?” Firmly, he insisted an answer. “Leave my family out of your charades, you understand me!”

“Trust me, your family is in danger, doctor.” The informant bounced back at him. “Your wife shouldn’t have come Sunday, so why did you bring her?”

The doctor was silent, then he said, “Because, in case you were hitting on me, then she would see and intercept this bizarre fabrication. I should have you arrested for stalking.”

“So, why don’t you?” She was silent.

“I’m not sure.” He paused, “Perhaps, I’m interested in your tales of cloak and daggers, your mysteries of God knows what.”

The informant listened, “Go on. Any more , hmm?

“You talk. Your turn. Explain your business.” The doctor fell quiet. “And, to add, the phones. A little over the top, for a twisted sorted game, I’d say.”

She didn’t hesitate. “Did you see the laboratory notes in the envelope?”

“No.” He responded.

“I put two reports from my distant past and one of a recent test. Both under the name of Mrs. Smith.”

“Okay. Tests of what kind?” He reached for the envelope on the car seat next to him and opened it.

“Lab tests with my DNA. You will notice that both tests have 1% Neanderthal and the old test has 2% unknown DNA and the latest has 3.5% unknown.” The informant waits for him to answer.

“Wait a minute let me look.” He ruffles with the pages. “You know DNA is not my expertise.”

“Just look.” She shot back quickly.

“Yes, I see, but still I don’t know what this means, I don’t do DNA.” He’s disconcerted with her for insisting him involuntarily into matters he is unlearned.

She sighed having her own frustrations with his lack of concern or understanding.

“What do these reports have to do with me? I ask you again. Stop with the vagueness.” He insisted.

She thought, “I want you to have labs drawn on me again, then on your self.”

“What? That’s absurd. Why should I carry on with your delusional mystery?” He continued to look at the lab reports and her DNA. He recognized the lab values were not matching and are increasing and thought, why? “Why do I have to test mine? Why am I relevant to your search?”

“I will be in this week and you will draw labs on me under the name of Mrs. Smith, right?” She restated her request.

“Yes, come into the office Wednesday noon. No one but the staff will be around. I’ll just tell them it’s for labs that had to be drawn at noon. But, mine… not sure.” He gave clear instructions to the informant and took control of her craziness.

“Okay, Wednesday at noon, I’ll be there, but if my labs are remarkable then you will draw yours?” She took control again.

“Okay. Deal. But, what does your DNA have to do with mine? We’re not related.” He hesitated, “Are we?”

“Well, yes, in away we are.” She said, “I’ll see you Wednesday.”

They hung up and she walked back to her house. It started to thunder. Rain was coming soon.

 

Chapter 4

He was busy the early part of the week. The young doctor didn’t have time to think about the strange phone cal except the last words the crazy Mrs.  Smith, the odd informant said, “Well, yes, in away we are.” And, this bothered him. These words got under his skin.  What exactly did she mean? 

Wednesday noon:

“Hello Mrs. Smith.” The young doctor unlocked the door to the clinic. “Come on back.”

The informant Mrs. Smith was directed to the phlebotomy room. “Our phlebotomist is on her lunch break so if you’ll allow me to do it, then I’ll have it done in no time.” He was friendly and spoke loudly so the staff could hear him and think nothing about a noon lab draw. After all, the doors were shut at exactly noon. He had all the vials, the tourniquet, the needles and the centrifuge ready. “May I get you a coke or coffee?”

“A coke would be good. Thank you,” She responded.

“Before you drink the coke,” after he handed it to her, “Let me swab your mouth for DNA. We’ll do it every way we can to get comparisons. Okay?”

“Yes, that’s fine.” She seemed glum and was quiet, but decided chit chat would be best in case she was tracked into his office and was being listened to. “How has your week been?”

The doctor, nodded his head, “Here make a fist” as he had placed the tourniquet on her upper arm, “The week has been quite unusual. The office has been busy as all get out.”

She smiled. “Unusual?”

“Oh, nothing too crazy.” He chuckled under his breath.

“I see sarcasm, doctor.” She sighed. “I hope everything is back to your normal routine?”

“Absolutely. Things couldn’t be better.” He cut it short. He was beginning to sweat. He blew a vein. “Dam-it. I have to use the other arm.”

“Dam-it? Do you always talk this way around clients?” She acted upset. “Calm down. I don’t have all day. I have to go back to work soon.”

He shut up and put the tourniquet tightly on the left arm. “That should do it.” He was successful and unsnapped the cord. “There you go. Finished. The labs will be sent out after lunch.” He escorted her to the door and opened for her. “I’ll call you with the results, Mrs. Smith.”

“Make me copies. I will pick them up.” She turned quickly not to show any familiar behavior in case they were being watched. Off she went in the old white Honda.

The doctor walked into the office and sat down at the computer. He added a drug screen and a BAC to the labs. This way he would no if the woman was drunk, on drugs and her DNA which he was now curious of.

He wanted to ask Mrs. Smith for her real name, but thought about the fact that having too much information was irrelevant and would involve him even farther than he wanted. Nope, he answered his curiosity.

 

Chapter 5

Two weeks passed by and he had not thought about the labs or Mrs. Smith. After all, he was a busy doctor with many patients and his wife surely would have him involved in more social activities than he wanted. So, the thoughts of those two dilemmas were simply dismissed.

Mrs. Smith, the female informant, laid low and never once called him on the cell phones or contacted his office. However, she ruminated about the findings and wondered why he had not contacted her about the results. She bit her nails and chewed them off, but she was silently waiting.

Another Wednesday two point five days later:

The fax machine was shooting out labs as it usually did at any doctors office. The lab tech took them off the machine and delivered the results to the prospective doctors. She put values into the young doctors box on the outside of his door where he would see them and read them. He did just that and noticed in the pile of fifteen or more pages the name Mrs. Smith. She had several of the fifteen pages. He closed the door behind him and sat to look them over. The first one was the drug screen. It was negative of any substance then he looked at the BAC. No alcohol present in her blood system. “Damn she’s clean a a whistle.” He flipped through to the DNA results. And sure enough the swab of the oral mucosa results were conclusive to the last results she had. 3.5% Unknown and 1% Neanderthal, he whispered to hime self. He didn’t know any DNA specialists, he didn’t know what this meant.

“Amy,” he yelled.

“Yes, doctor.” Amy poked into his office.

“Find a local DNA or Genetic engineer, doctor or someone I can send a DNA consult out to.” The doctor ordered right now and Amy got right on it…

She called around and found  a Doctor not far away. She wrote his number and address down and took it into the young doctor.

He placed a call and was able to get through to the doctor when he identified himself as a doctor.

“Doctor DNA, this is the young doctor, and I wanted to ask about normal and abnormal DNA percentages. Could you tell me if 3.5% is unusual in oral mucosa for a normal human level?

Could you tell me where I can look such information up? A reference perhaps?” The young doctor asked collegiately.

The elder doctor replied after he cleared his throat, “You say 3.5% doctor?”

“Yes, that’s right, 3.5%.” The young doctor clarified.

“That can’t be right. test again. The lab is wrong. Can’t be.” And he was certain in the tone of his voice, the young doctor was mistaken.

“No, this is the second recent result. They are the same from two different labs.” There was a silence between the two men and the fund doctor said, “Well, I’ve taken up enough of your time. Thank you, anyway.”

“Yes, he added those two results are wrong. Your patient would not be human, sir. Well, good day, call again if you need me.” The elder doctor thought the question was odd and the response that two different tests from two different labs verified the same 3.5% values and this was more than interesting, indeed. He wished he had gotten the young doctors number, but he didn’t. He asked his secretary, but she had gone for the day, as usual.

The young doctor hung up and wished he hadn’t called the consulted doctor. But, he waited for the staff to leave saying good bye then he attempted to draw his own labs as he promised. Finally after stabbing himself three times was able to get them, four vials, in an upside down manner on the arm. He put them in the refrigerator and with a label the lab staff told him, after an inquiring call, for a miscellaneous practice draw. No charges, no questions, just a practice. He made two copies for the informant as he promised. He put them in the brief case, and sped off to the tree area on the side of the road where he could call her. Meanwhile, his wife called and asked why he was late?

“You forgot we had a diner party tonight? You’re late.” She demanded that he answer and she demonstrated her anger of missing such an event.

“Sorry, working late and I’ll be thirty more minutes. Go on without me.” He was sweet to her placating her for now.

He pulled the car over under the trees off the side of the road. There was no one around. He made his call on the cell phone the female informant, Mrs. Smith provided.

The phone rang several times. He did not leave a message. The messages had not been set up. Mrs. Smith thought that would be best, no messages to be traced. He began to drive home and when he arrived the house was empty. His children were staying with his inlays for the night. He didn’t feel like attending a dinner party so instead he poured a Jack on the rocks. He sat in a comfortable slouchy chair in the dark and thought of what the labs meant to him. What did Mrs. Smith mean when she said they are related?

His private cell from Mrs. Smith rang. It was her. He answered quietly. “Hello.”

“I’ve been waiting for you to call, well? Any results?” She jumped into the labs without any surface conversation.

“Yes, I have them. And, your two copies.” He shot back at her.

“Well, what do they say? Did you make me copies?” She was eager to hear the results that she was certain concrete as she thought.

“They are conclusive to your other labs. 3.5% unknown in oral mucosa.” He paused.

“I want the copies. Where can I meet you?” She hurried not wanting to miss the results or to allow time to prevent her from getting them.

“Not tonight. I’m too tired. Come to the secretaries in the morning. They will be there.” He again took control as that was his nature.

“No, not at your office. Bump into me tomorrow at the store just like in August at Mid-day. We can greet and pass the envelope like everything is normal.” She was in control.

“Okay, but meet me at 2pm. I have meetings until then. Oh, my wife has come home. Got to go.” He hung up the cell and put it in the brief case.

“Hello honey. Why didn’t you come. Everyone waited for you.” She was tall and red headed like Maureen O’ Hara and fiesta like her, as well.

“Too busy. I just got home.” He swirled the bourbon in the glass.

“Well, you should have called to let us know to eat without you. Is that bourbon? Are you drinking alone in the dark? That bad, huh?”She could interrogate with her lean body and red hair better than an FBI agent. “What could be so imperative to a family care doctor?”

He rolled his eyes at her sarcastic put-down of being only, in his mind, a family care doctor? Geez, what does a man have to do to get recognition and respect? Damn her. 

 

Chapter 6

Early the next day he got a call on the private cell. He was on his way to work and alone driving in the rain.

The informant female says, “It’s not a good idea to meet you at 2pm. Is there any way you could meet me now? Do you have the labs reports with you?”

“I have them with me. I’m close to work and have only a few extra minutes. Where?” He responded quickly.

“Park your car at the grocery and walk to the post office. Go through their backdoor. I’ll walk there and be there in ten minuets.” She hung up.

He was early that morning with thirty minutes to spare. So, this plan of hers would work. Driving the car to the grocery and parking it he then got out and walked as if he were going into the store, but he walked the sidewalk to the post office where the most office boxes were and walked out the back door. She was standing there in the rain.

“Well, come inside, out of the rain.” He insisted.

“Just let me have the results.” She put her hand out and he gave her the labs reports.

“If you have any questions call me later. I gotta go,” he said. There were people starting to come in and he felt unusually uncomfortable to the beautiful grandmother informant, Mrs. Smith. “What’s your real name by the way?”

She didn’t smile. “It’s not a game doctor. This is not a flirtatious meeting or coincidental rendezvous, understand?”

The young doctor had to check his emotions. She was right, he was feeling like this was a scandalous rendezvous and he was rather enjoying himself. He forgot this was a bazaar story about wild DNA and a weird woman. The mysterious excitement was taking him into a fantasy of types.

“You’ll need to watch your pheromones, doctor. This is serious. By the way, did you draw your labs?” She raised a doubting eyebrow at him.

“Yes, yes I did.” He retorted. People were coming into the post office. It was 8:05am. “I got to go. Late now. When my labs come in, I’ll call you.” He left in the rain from the front door and followed his path to the store and then his car. As far as he knew, no one saw him. He felt sneaky and ashamed for feeling flirtatious, for enjoying a life of increased adrenalin. He never felt that way before…

 

Chapter 7

Almost Fall

The young doctor went about his work and social functions and left the flirtatious misinterpretations behind. After all, Mrs. Smith was a grandmother and not a normal stereotypical woman who would be considered as a rendezvous for a primary care physician. So, he carried on as usual.

The grandmother informant, Mrs. Smith was about the business as usual, too. Only hers were menial and mundane while in the office. However, after 5pm, it was the usual adrenalin rush she had experienced since she was a child. Once in a while they would visit her at night. The clock usually said 3am or close. They were not consistently on time, but they gave a few minutes on either side of 3. However, she was older now and their visitation numbers and times to visit were fewer, thank God. She did believe in God or a supreme power. She had to believe because something always saved her from their grip.

It was for the reason of monetary purpose that the informant did astrological forecast for extra money and for the fact she loved astrology. She finished a woman’s chart who lived in Oregon and noticed intently that this woman had similar coordinates as herself. It was later in central time as Oregon so she called the woman for clarification. The phone rang and the woman picked up.

“Hello,” she said.

“Yes, hello,” the informant had a Southern drawl from being and living in The Bible Belt for so long. “This is Lottie the astrologer and I need to clarify your information, is now a good time?”

“Oh yes! Now is great.” The woman answered.

There are unusual themes in your astrological readings and I need to verify your birthdate and time of birth Is it 1952? And, were you born at 7:58Am in Portland, Oregon?” Lottie asked.

“Yes, that is correct.” The woman replied.

“Okay, good. So, I want to explain that in 1952, October 10th, The Constellation Ophiochus was arising in the Eastern sky. This is rare to occur and we know the zodiac has 12 houses, but in your case 13… Lottie waits for a response.

“Very insightful,” the woman replies. “Do go into more of this. I’ve never heard of a 13th house in The Zodiac.”

“Sagittarius is in the twelfth house and is also your ascendant and it is also sitting near the constellation Ophiochus or Asclepius . This would say you are a strong believer in a force much greater than most other men. Your Chiron is also near the ascendant and close to the constellation Asclepius and would indicate you are a healer. Are you a health employee?”

“Yes. I am a nurse.” The woman proudly answered.

“That would explain Ophiochus/Asclepius in your chart on the horizon at the time of your birth,” Lottie explained.

“I’m not aware of that name or custom.” The nurse responded.

“I’ll send it as a text. Look it up. The myth goes like this. The constellation on the horizon at the time of your birth would be in the eastern sky. Asclepius was then coming up or arisen. You could then, identify with the constellation as your birth home if you thought that we are all star children and connected spiritually. It is reported that Ophiochus/Asclepius  is your DNA home or where your descendants came. You are from that Constellation and nearest star to you at the time of birth would be the home of the star that your family came. That is where your spirit came from, if you believed that’s a possibility and wanted to know more, there are references to this information.”

The woman closed down.  She was somewhat shocked and refuting the ideas. “Oh, that’s silliness,” she responded and laughed. “That’s not feasible. No, can’t go there. I’m Christian and star children and aliens are not anything that I take any part of. Astrology is just fun. That’s why I did this reading with you. Can’t do the other.”

Lottie shut down, also. “Well, if you need me for future reading please contact me. You now have my number. She realized that she wasn’t going there and wasn’t interested. Perhaps frightened by the idea that we came from alien life forms.

“Well, good night Lottie,” she said her goodbyes.

“Goodnight.” And, Lottie hung up disappointed because the woman was clueless. She saw no reason to forward the woman any further any information.

Lottie, Mrs. Smith or the female informant sat on the couch thinking about the phone call with the woman in Portland. Recollecting their conversation it provoked dismay and anger because the woman said that her astrological read was indeed, “A joke between Christian friends who chose the same birthday and decided together to do a test. They would send the same birth information to three of four astrologers to see if they all came up with the same natal horoscope.”

Lottie had explained to the woman, “I don’t use computer generated charts and interpretations. My interpretations are original and I personally sift through the data the information provided.”

This didn’t impress the woman in Portland. The woman was certain that all of the reports were simply conjured from “a demon.”

Lottie was disappointed, but she went on and gave it any more thoughts.

The thunder came again. Lottie lost power in her home. She lit candles. It was soon to be her birthday. She too was from Asclepius. It was on the eastern horizon at the time of her birth.

She thought about the doctor and his birthday. “Could his birthday say the same. How could I get his birth information without seeming bizarre? After all, the doctor was living in The Bible Belt and he may hold the same belief system as the woman in Portland? Well, he already thinks I’m bizarre enough. It can’t hurt anymore to ask.”

The thunder boomed overhead. It shook the house. I hate nights like this.

Lottie hated nights like this one because they, whomever they are, would sometimes pay her a visit and since she was on a quest to find information and other human victims were more than likely angry with her. For these reasons she feared they would come, Lottie expected them soon, possibly tonight. There was no absolute telling about their arrival except it would be between 2 and 3AM.

Lotto’s adrenalin was high. She felt it rising. She had to work in the morning and knew with her norepinephrine this high, sleep would be hard to fall into. She took a Xanax and used the dose by a half.

She marveled at the coincidence of having an appointment with the young doctor. The previous doctor moved out of town and for this reason she was absorbed into the new young doctors patient list. The first appointment two years prior she had with him was normal, and without any odd or strange feelings. He was a doctor and there was no signs or odd occurrences that pointed to any connections with him. Lottie thought about the first time she had an eyebrow raising experience with him.

It was when she had her second appointment to see him. He neared her to listen to her chest, suddenly a vibrational shock happened, they both felt and jumped. They blamed it on static electricity. However, Lottie saw it differently, but she drew no conclusions or conjured anything from her imagination. But he had something else that captivated her. His eyes. They were blue and sometimes green and the pupils changed rapidly. The way he glanced at her for a split second, his pupils and her own met. It was hard to explain to a normal person. It was not flirtatious or romantic by any means. No, it was like two railcars latching together conjoining to become one. Clink. She felt it. They matched. Another piece of the puzzle had been found. Lottie was certain that the young doctor was the one. Could his birth have the same coordinates as hers and since he was a doctor would certainly be interesting to investigate. If he was also born with Ophiochus on the horizon than this could only mean that he is the link, the one person who would help her. After all, he would be helping himself and his children. Asclepius would be his origins. The Serpent Bearer, the healer.

She knew she was imaginative and had to check on occasion, if things were real, or psychotic. Not once had she been diagnosed with psychosis, but when psychologist and doctors examined her, they simply said, “It’s in your imagination. You’re quite creative, aren’t you?”

She had to agree with them on the creative description. That is a fact. She was imaginative, but high levels of norepinephrine could usher epinephrine synergistically. Her mind was going that night, all of the what if’s, could be this or that, and so forth, had her in a whirlwind. The Xanax Thank God was kicking in… Her mind began to slow down and she went to her bedroom, took her clothes off, laid in bed and drifted off to the land of no thoughts or adrenalin. She loved that place.

 

Chapter 8

Rem Sleeping

The thundered rolled all night. Though it was now distant, it still reverberated the small house.

Lottie slept soundly, snoring in and out with the cool breeze of October. Her windows had opened and she was not startled, nor moved. Sleeping as soundly as one could, she had no cares. No lights were on and only shadows from the lightening and trees danced on her walls. This never frightened Lottie as she was use to terrifying images and these were natural and she hadn’t a care about how they played out violent themes on her walls or had ghost faces appearing in the mirages of shadows. The images carried on as she slept undisturbed.

Standing tall, hidden in the corner an entity stood, watching her. No facial expressions it had and time was of no concern by the looks of the thing. Its finger arose from its side cloaked in a black robe and it pointed at the clock. Time stopped then as she slept.

Bright lights everywhere. Not Earthly, by any means, they illuminated the cold metallic room, as she laid on a slate slab. Cold with vapor rising, humidifying the room, Lottie opened her eyes. She knew this place all too well, it was a place of torture and a place of hell. She screamed, “NO!” Paralyzed without restraints, as usual, and her mouth muzzled by invisible sources, her screams were not heard by anyone or anything. She hoped God heard her and would send angels to free her. Eyes were wide open, breathing in and out through her nose, she looked around as far as her peripheral vision could go, she felt movement, and from ten feet or more she saw shadows.

This time there were no instruments used on her body, no sounds that broke her ear drums, there was filling the space of tall figures of whom she saw no faces. They surrounded the slate slab where she laid, and permeated her body with mental messages. Threatening her to stop her investigations, to stop visits with the doctor. They showed her the room next to her as the walls separating vanished and in the next room were two children.  The children of the doctors, lay.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 30 The Trinity

This will be one of my last posts on 30 – 31 Days Walking Through The Bible… (my way). This one is a little lengthy and I do apologize; however, the number 3 has so much within it and are entirely different from each other characters within the 3. Perhaps 3 character types are more prone to mental illness. And, unless it is balanced, may slip off and be one-sided making the 3 out of sorts with itself. It is the most artistic, and most genius of all the numbers, and I will try to explain why.

So, here we go…. The number, 3

Day 30 and 3 + 0 = 3 The Trinity of all numbers. The number 3 has 3 parts or 3 components of one and is demonstrated in The Holy Trinity” which is inclusive of The Father, The Son, and the force and connection that binds and guides them into the union of 1. Without The 3rd force, The Holy Spirit, the number 3 would be a split personality or split personalities. After all, how can 1 person have 3 different entities living within itself? This would be impossible. To remain stable and be of a sound mind, would be a challenge for the best of us, do you agree? So, we break down each part of a 3. Number 1, The Father; number 2, The Son; number 3, The Holy Spirit according to traditional Christian teaching. Each part is unique of itself and can not stand alone and be a 3 personality. The 3 must have all the parts of The Trinity in order to be a true 3 and it must have all the to balance itself.

This is a picture that I took in 2010. This is controlling an energy perfectly with mastery.
This is a picture of JR that I took in 2010. This is controlling an energy perfectly with mastery.

Number 1) The Father is a being that embodies all creation. This father called all life forms into the world. He/she is the chief engineer, the chief lawyer, the chief doctor, the conductor of the grandest orchestra that one could imagine, and is a disciplinarian of all that he chooses. This creator is a wizard and simply creates by thinking something into existence. Within the 3, as I’ve written before, is a tremendous artist type. The 3 can produce masterpieces as their mind is in constant rolling factory (but never the same) master designer and producer. The godhead of creation of these pieces of art  is found in The Father. It is truthfully difficult for a human to understand God, The Father because this entity is like the number 8, infinity, and is not bound by any pictures, spheres, aromas, plants, mountains, animals, sky, universe, heavens, people, life, death, quasars, black holes, engineering, medicine, mathematics of all kinds, television, theories, food, oceans, waters, atmospheres, continents, stratospheres, microbes, atoms, nuclei, health, disease or you name anything and God has already made it years ago, passed it and has gone so far forward in creating more and more every moment, second, or infinite time or quantum this or that… Nothing contains or controls The Father, the master creator. Except ~ number 2 and 3 make the creation easier to comprehend. It brings creation down to something mankind can perceive and except. So, The Father, the creator is part of the ego or personality of the 3 person. The 3 is a true artist whether the 3 person creates cakes, photography, understands all mathematics, music, pictures, novels, writing, landscaping, architecture, or any type of artistry that I am leaving out. The artist says something in their designs that will more than likely not be spoken with speech (usually); however, let me say that some motivational speakers are clearly creative energies and have the 3 characteristics.  Artistry will come through in their display of whatever it maybe. A personality without creativity is questionable about being an actual 3. There is a certain kind of madness or mania within The Father. Many 3’s have manias or depressive states. Does The Father have depression or mania? Heaven’s no! However, a 3 person who has a taste or a fraction of the creative power found within The Father will have a (different than normal) flare or perception thus making a way for creative genius to be displayed. The portal of creations rolls of the three or it just manifests without trying. It is constantly exuding from this person. Creativity is not mustered up or conjured. It just occurs naturally and can’t be stopped. Now, let’s look at the next apart of the 3 personality.

Number 2) The Son is the part of The Father that is civil, kind, just, pure, enlightened, beautiful, humane and it is because of all the goodness within the godhead is embodied within the character named, The Son. This 2nd being/entity within the 3 characters is the one who renders grace and mercy. He is the one that tames The Father and makes this world and universe have a since or loving order that a man/woman can and will perceive. It was a small part of The Father’s design that doused mankind with a void or hunger for love and beauty. The Father had to give to humankind a personification of himself that would be known to him and by him as His Son. The Son is the curator of this gallery of The Father’s artistry and history and is the goldsmith of this earths and The Father established The Son over this masterful accomplishment. The Son presents the masterpiece in away that humankind can understand and He also presents mankind back to The Father for final inspection. The Son is presentable in human form and looks like a man and talks in the languages of humans. The Son thinks like a human and suffers the human losses the same. He feels the grandeur of gains such as in a marriage celebration. The son smiles at the birth of a child. The Son marvels at the flowers in the fields and The Son cries at the misfortune of others and feels the loss and deaths, the same or more than, the human. The Son takes notice of animal life and The Earth’s agricultural produce. This planet became the home of The Sons’ and he loved it as much as anyone else. He marveled at the beauty and wonders the same as the next person. He also beheld the glory of the sky from a man’s perspective. The Son was able to control the waters and miracles because of the next personality held within the 3 number. He is the healer of the earth. And, I must say here at this point that a 3 character without the 3rd force would be entirely at odds within itself. And, without The Holy Spirit, the 3rd unit within the godhead, the 2 opposing personalities wouldn’t be united. The Holy Spirit brings both The Father and The Son into a peaceful union which makes operation of the other 2 characters, smooth and without flaws or roughness. My question is probably the same as yours. It is the age old question that wants to know, which came first? Did The Father create The Son and The Holy Spirit or are they separate of themselves? And, the answer is, your guess is just as good as mine; however, we can speculate together. My thought is they were all part of The Father’s who created the others because he knew he needed them for perfect balance. My guess and what is yours?

Number 3) The Holy Spirit is the magic. It is what goes and does the supernatural maneuvers over all the creations that God spun into action. It is the oil for a squeaking wheel and is the force that makes everything happen. When either The Father speaks or The Son and orders a process to occur The Holy Spirit moves. So my question is what if The Father and The Son are in opposition to each other? What does The Holy Spirit do then? My answer is when The Father created or found The Holy Spirit, he brought it into the godhead knowing the nature of healing, and the divine covering that The Holy Spirit always does, so, The Father chose or created it for this purpose. The Father knows all things require balance so the 3 entities balance each other perfectly and from out of that perfection all smile and find the joy of perfect harmony in perfected expression. The Holy Spirit is the cursive in beautiful hand script and it is (or she as The Holy Spirit has been identified as being a female) the flowers and green grass in the meadow. The Holy Spirit makes all that is wrong, horrific, painful and unappealing into the opposite of peace, comfort and great understanding. She makes life worth living and is the enlightenment of the universe. She brings hope and peace. She is a good nurse and not so much a teacher as that would be more of The Son’s role. She takes no credit. She is the rainbow after the storm. She is able to work in the dark spaces of time and space and there is no place, not even at the bottom of the oceans, that she can’t permeate or be present. She is found everywhere, even in the heavens and galaxies. War zones, birthing rooms, hospice rooms, tearful places, happy places, mountain tops and on The Moon, in the minds of mathematicians,  The Holy Spirit moves, travels and holds his being, healing, enlightenment, joys, and peace and so much more. The Holy Spirit brings The Father and The Son into perfect union. The creator, The Father, and disciplinarian and the other the great lover and humanitarian, The Son, she makes perfect within the spherical number 3 as she smooths all rough ends and brings an absolute balance similar to a ball that rolls together with synchronicity and harmony. The Father and The Son understand and appreciate one another as with the help of The Holy Spirit, they are all united and perfect. They are the yin and yang of life, Earth, water, fire and air. They are rolling together as one and see and understand all things in heaven and on earth.

In the number 3 we now can experience the light and the darkness, the cold versus hot, the morning and the evening, birth and death, and so forth. The 3 number holds all opposing knowledge and has The Holy Spirit to make all rough places straight. The number 3 is a difficult character to be or live with; however, the 3 is the most gifted with opportunity to be a 3. After all, God The Father and The Son entrusted the creative knowledge to the 3 person and gave The Holy Spirit to tame the drastic opposing views and gave the 3 the tools to create music, mathematics, literature, art works, cakes, wall art, writing of all kinds and so forth. To much is given; much is expected and with that responsibility can come moments of madness that must be tamed. Being a 3 human, that person will need help and great support in order to do all that God and The Son intends.

I will be adding or perhaps taking away from this article at times as it’s not written in stone, but is only my perception of the number 3 characters.

*Also, a note here that I will do the number 31 as I do want to wrap up the complete qualities of the 4 character and then I shall be complete explaining numerical basic related to creation, God and the grand design of mankind. This numerical walk through the Bible is intended for fun and it not intended to replace the need for psychotherapy or God as you experience him. So should you need psycho-social help, please see your doctor, or go to the nearest emergency room. 

Day 26

Day 26, 2 + 6 = 8 and 8 is infinity, godlike, it stands alone, isolated, superior, starlike, right, it is; because it’s so, The number 8 is eternal, it has a never ending light, it is the source of light and perhaps The Shikinnah Glory… I’m not 100% certain, but I highly suspect that it is, that light and is an independent quality of Gods. However, The Infinity or 8 would not be so illumines without the other numbers or qualities. No one would notice the 8’s starlike beams and so therefore, it would not be noticed by man or animal….

And, if it were not noticed would the 8 be as important? I suppose the 8 would be important to God, as he has The Shikinnah Glory surrounding him at all times. Or, is the glory or light actually God’s light and not separate of itself? Perhaps, 8’s and 26’s are God’s light and are no light into themselves? Perhaps, they are and extension of God’s, that beams from him?

The implications are huge. Does God have a poor side, does He possess an average personification, does He own a humorous side and can we say each numerical value represent a part of our creator?

The life circle. The Golden Ratio, Fibonacci
The life circle. The Golden Ratio, Fibonacci

So, when we take a look ate the fabric of God’s couldn’t we say that every mineral, every liquid, every solid, every rock and every living being from amoeba to Kingdom animal from human, to horse, elephant, dog or cat (et al, creatures plants and so forth) are God’s personification, His being, His life and so forth and 26’s or 8’s are His lights?

Awe… so, much to think about. There is an infinity (8) of possibilities… And, this above is a small bit of information.

Day 12 (1 +2 = 3 and that = The Trinity) 12

Day 12 (1 +2 = 3 and that = The Trinity) 12

I am using an older post that I put together years ago on the number 12 and the importance of the number. Not many people have visited that post and I think it will be appropriate for this day… So here goes.

12

Defining the number Twelve would probably be like this:

12 is the largest even number that can be expressed as the sum of two prime numbers. Being a summation of two prime numbers, number 12 is believed to be the number of strength, conviction, absoluteness and finality. This gives importance to the meaning of number 12. ” Quote from Home of Beliefs.

It further makes a suggestion that the number 12 represents a place of authority as we see examples from the legal system as there are 12 jurors, The Biblical system and the systems further discussed later on the page, and the body’s own 12 Chakras,’ and other places of interest.

There is also a “blessing” or something special about the birthday of those born on the twelfth.
Some whose birthday are on the 12th are:
All these names references from Quote from Home of Beliefs

Julius Caesar
Abraham Lincoln
Edmund Burke
Charles Darwin
George Bush
Pete Sampras
Hugh Jackman
*Plus my son, Joel, whose birthday is 12/12/83.

People born on the 12th of any month possess an artistic bent, which manifests in everything they do – be it cooking, communication or any other endeavor. Their quick-witted personality makes them mass entertainers who radiate vitality. Also, they are friendly and very emotional. People born under the influence of number 12 can be excellent salesperson, or people of authority. Some famous people born on the 12th are: (from Home of Beliefs.)

The Bible says:
The 12 Patriarchs
There were twelve• patriarchs• from (and including)• Shem• (the son of Noah) to Jacob:
1. Shem
2. Arphaxad
3. Salah
4. Heber
5. Peleg
6. Reu
7. Serug
8. Nahor
9. Terah
10. Abraham
11. Isaac
12. Jacob

In The New Testament:
The twelve Apostles.
The twelve foundations in the heavenly Jerusalem.
The twelve gates.
The twelve pearls.
The twelve angels.

Who were the 12 people specially ANOINTED to serve in government?
1. Nadab, Exodus 29:7,9, etc.
2. Abihu, Exodus 29:7,9, etc.
3. Eleazar, Exodus 29:7,9, etc.
4. Ithamar, Exodus 29:7,9, etc.
5. Saul, 1Samuel 10:1.
6. David, * 1Samuel 16:13.
7. Absalom, 2Samuel 19:10.
8. Solomon, 1Kings 1:39.
9. Jehu, 2 Kings 9:6.
10. Joash, 2Kings 11:12.
11. Jehoahaz, 2Kings 23:30

At what age did Jesus first appear in public? 12.

*Twelve legions of  angels  mark the perfection of angelic powers (Matthew 26:53).

*The number 12 is found 187 times total in the Bible, 22 of which are in the book of Revelation.

*12 is also used as a signature of Israel.

*Truth is symbolized by 144, or 12 x 12.

*There are 12 divisions of heaven called the Mazzaroth

*The New Jerusalem has 12 gates of pearls, 12 angels at the gates and the names of the 12 tribes of Israel over the gates. The wall of the city has 12 foundations of precious stones; in them are the names of the 12 apostles. The wall is 144 cubits high (12 x 12). The city is 12,000 furlongs (1,500 miles) square.

And the women with the issue of blood, how many years did she bleed? 12. Mark 5:25

The little girl raised from the dead was how old? 12
Jesus said to her, “Talitha, cumi,” which is translated, “Little girl, I say to you, arise.”..

Twelve is the product of 3 (the perfectly Divine and heavenly number) and 4 (the earthly, the number of what is material and organic).

Added: While seven is composed of 3 added to 4, twelve is 3 multiplied by 4, and hence denotes that which can scarcely be explained in words, but which the spiritual perception can at once appreciate, viz., organization, the products denoting production and multiplication and increase of all that is contained in the two numbers separately. The 4 is generally prominently seen in the twelve.

There is a curious relationship between harmonic and disharmonious content of music and numbers. This same relationship occurs in music, colors, and other physical concepts. It seems as if the Creator creates patterns within patterns and illustrates concepts through numbers. Many patterns that appear in one place are repeated in another. We see this fact throughout life. Time and music both have lower and higher octaves. The octaves of time span a day, a year, and a lifetime. For example the times of the day and the seasons of the year can be compared to the stages of a living entity.

From C to C = 12…. From D to D = 12… etc…

Prominence of the Numbers 7 & 12 in Music and Time
An interesting aside is the prominence of the numbers 7 and 12 in music and time. There are seven whole notes in the octave and 12 half steps in the octave. We also see the prominence of these same numbers in our time divisions – 12 hours each of day and night, 7 days in a week, 12 months in the year.

* FYI for interest: Division of the Octave by Two = Disharmonious, as 2 colors opposite the color chart will clash, same with musical numbers. Isn’t this interesting? If you didn’t catch it read it again. The same is true for the Zodiac as 2 opposites don’t attract (for long).

Magnesium• has the Atomic•  number 12. .

•There are 12 pairs of ribs in the human body – normally.

Twelve men have walked on the Earth’s• moon.

There are 12 stars on the Flag of Europe.

A group of twelve things is called a Duodecad.

The body has 12 cranial nerves

In The Zodiac:
Twelve is a perfect number, signifying perfection of government, or of governmental perfection. It is found as a multiple in all that has to do with rule. The sun which “rules” the day, and the moon and stars which “govern” the night, do so by their passage through the twelve signs of the Zodiac which completes the great circle of the heavens of 360 (12 x 30) degrees or divisions, and thus govern the year.

On 12/12/2012 some declare the end of the world, some say the beginning of world peace, I say it will be my sons 29th birthday.

Oh, and 1 last phenominah about twelve, 12,   1+2= 3 The Trinity

Author Notes
12 is VERY interesting though many would say it is part of numerology. But, The Bible contains numerical absolutes and 12 is just one….